My internship has finally came to an end. It is a sort of relieved and happy thing but i am also sad to leave the people there. The people there are realli nice like Mingyan, Eta, Melissa, Sally, Val, Dipin,Leeyi, Joe and Gary... If not for them my internship here will be an disater, i will not imagine how bored i am in the company having to stay around 9 hours everyday.

I always hate the last day of everything, like last day of primary 6, secondary sch, my last day at surin, last day of camps, my last day of 9 lives shoot, and now my last day of internship. No matter how much u hated ur sch, ur company, the ppl or wad, i tink u will still at hav fond memories of the place and the ppl most especially. You will thod, when will i meet this ppl again, maybe a yr, a month, or you might nv even see them again in your whole life. Sad isn't it. Now i going to finish my poly soon, goin army later, dun even know will be able to stay contact with most of my friends in poly, realli love poly life, i couldn't imagine enjoying sch in jc. studying and wearing uniform just sucks.

Yeah 9 lives gonna wrap tonight, gonna share with u guys my whole experience in my first real drama production...

At the start it has realli been tough, cause everybody work realli fast and there is no time to delay, you jus cant walk to the toilet u must rush, u cant climb the stairs, u must cheong the stairs, you must realli c how they set up a track, a light in seconds of time. But after goin through so much, i have gain alot from the guys the crew, gonna miss you all ppl, shinyin the ad, hazel the pm, ah ming the gaffer, brandon jeff ah j the grips, sound nelson n jevin and so on and so on....

Actors
I gonna told you guys about the actors, they are realli the best and friendliest ppl on earth, i guess most ppl impressions are they are realli stud ups and dun giv a damn abt others but u r wrong. Like my fav actress there Serene who act as the toilet cleaner, she is so so so so so nice... She bought food for the vrew whenever she come to set, roti boys, doughnuts, and on her last 3 day of shoot she still buy us cakes and wrote in the box, thanks so much for the crew, you realli make filming a happy and memorable experience. On her last day of set she still give me a hug b4 she go, she is just the friendliest actress i tink in the world, for now.

Adrian Pang is also realli nice, like sometimes when i have to set up the set as i am in the art department, i got to clear his stuff, he will give me a pat on the shoulder and say no worries go ahead and do it. On his last day i am the first person he came up to give a handshake, he is a realli funny guy but more quiter on real life.

Lim Yu Beng, also my acting teacher last time, think tts y i talk to him more on set, den he say how the juniors in my sch he is teaching now is driving him nuts hahaha i guess we too last time. But we say he had speak good things abt me to my lecturers wow hope that will improve my iap grades, He also gave every crew a small gift b4 he leave, and he say to me thanks for al the help given, its nt expensive stuff, but it this small things that make the thoughts count, he is a realli sincere and nice person.

Azri, my bro, hoho he is a damn good singer with a realli good band, you all gonna hear the sound tracks of 9 lives, it is all sang by him, i think he is better then Taufik Batisah la, he told me he dunno sing at where Tanjong Pagar dunno wad bar, shit nvm, dun tink i will go anyway. Veri veri veri veri nice person too, and i feel he is the most handsome of the lots, girls watch ou for this new star.

Pamela Oei, at first i thod she is a bit arrogant cause she got veri angry 1 time when the cast coordinator tell her to come too early on set, but slowly den i found out her average sleep is 2 -4 hrs a day cause she had to rehearse for the musical oi my sleeping beauty and another drama, and she is always smiling at the crew on her last day she also came forward and give a handshake to me. yipee got to touch so many hands.

Beatrice chia i ink her name is spelt like tt, whoa i nv mingl wit her la but the first time i saw her she look damn glam and seems to stand out from all the girls maybe because of her ht too, i use to dun tink she look pretty but nt now.

Sani, Crisbian, Damian, Jason, Natasha all the other main cast, too tired to say all, bt they are being great too always joking around.

Art Department
On the art department, they are always the first and leave to be on the set, cause u got to set up the set and clear it after tt. So i will always be moving things ehre and there cleaning things up. Sounds like a cleaner job la. But as i am the camera onset guy, i got to learn c the monitor all the guy and c how the director frame his shots, i must also try to add more foreground and bg to add depth to the shots, and create the vision tt the director 1, tts the art department job. ALso we have to get props, prepare props, make props. But i swear not to work in art department ever again, its just so tiring moving things.

Crew
I admit i am realli inexperienced la, also make some big mistakes liek forget to bring the camera pouch, thus the pm and director will like being harsh to us and keep reminding n reminding us, but through tt i learn to be more cautious and make sure it is done in the right way. The crew has being fun. Like Brandon, until now i have no idea y he can keep calling my name just to hear me say yes. And poor shinyin, from a veri silent girl being force to be strict with the extras under the hot pushing be the director n crew haha. Romesh being bullied or bullying all the extras, Jevin me and ming with the sian ar diao ar bullshit. Nelson is always a nice person to tok to and haizel although strict wit us at first slowly also i tink trust we can do our own job without ppl being pushing.

What i Learn
The first half of the shoots has been tough for me cause like wadever i do dun seems to be rite, due to my lack of experience, days pass realli slow, but towards the last few days, the shoot has been realli fun although we had no breaks for 1 week of marathon nights shoots each lasting more then 10 hours.

Actualli you dun have to be in the job to do learn tt task, normally i just observe how ppl do things and you can learn alot through tt, like how the director communicate with the cameraman and talent to get what he wants. How to came up to soulutions when face wit last min probs on the shoot which always happens. And the gaffer and grips teach me alot of their lightings, although i still dun too understand it haha. And seeing them use all the equiptment and stuff tt i nv learned in school at all.

The best thing is i can at least tell ppl i work in a whole drama production b4, which is more related to wad my sch is teaching, drama stuff, and its great working with such a great crew.

Ok too tired to continue next time den. to be continued....

WOO yesterday was a good day, cause it was the only day the 9 lives production crew finished all the scenes in the callsheet, although overunning 2 hours, shoot last from 1 am to 5 pm. Everybody was clapping madly when "ITS A WRAP" is shouted. And the director for the first time when he was about to go home specifically come to me and wave goodbye to me and say good job! i was like westlife " i'm flying without wings" plus r kelly " i believe i can fly" plus together which means i believe i am flying without wings.

In the industry u working, ppl opinions of interns are only 2, think u dunno anything, or expect u know everything. so both opinions means no gd, when think u dunno anything they wun giv u anythin to do to show wad u can do at all, when tink u know everything, when u make a minor mistake u will get aim like shit, tts y gd luck to all interns in future. I will declare myself not 1 anymore in 19 days time wee wee wee!!!>.

Now i gonna do this stupid MEME tagged by sandy - again.

7 Things that fear me
1. er i am bloody afraid of cockroaches
2. er i am also afriad of heights (damn sound like an ah gua now)
3. i am afraid of having sore throat (which means i cant sing!!!)
4. faring badly in results
5. Bring wrong or bring wrong messages of impressions of myself to others
6. Not having enough slp (which i sort of can live without now)
7. The sky is falling. (just laming)

7 things that i like
1. I like collecting HK movies collectibles (vcds,dvds, posters, magnet, postcard,blah blah blahs)
2. all my Music cds
3. Reading magazines or newspaper whenever i can sit down for a while like shitting, on traisn n buses, and when there is no tv show to watch.
4. reading other ppl blogs
5. Go out singing or chilling wit friends
6. watchign hk drama and man u soccer matches
7. girls

7 things i must have in my room
1. handphone
2. music
3. nice big comforable chair.
4. fan or aircon
5. alot of drawers, to dump all my rubbish when visitors come.
6. peace
7. er dunno still gt wad floor lo if no floor cant walk.

7 things i can do
1. i can sing non stop to myself ( can create thoe non stop techno music_
2. i can stay at home for a few days nt going out ( i am quite a homey person)
3. i can eat 5 meals a day
4. i can drink no plain water a day ( which is veri bad and i tried not to now)
5. i can walk miles from my home to a coffeeshop just to eat my favourite shui jiao mian.
6. i can watch tv the whole day.
7. i can survive after alot of nights of night shoots

7 things which i cant do(either restictions or cant live without)
1. cant tok to girls directly looking in the eyes for long.
2. cant do any acrobatic, my back is as hard as a wall
3. same as sandy without hp.
4. cannot dun bath a day.
5. cannot quarrel with girls, will always be the one losing.
6. cannot dun eat
7. cannot dun watch tv.

7 words i used often
wah tis i dun even know so anyhow whack
1. er.
2. ok la.
3 bu chuo bu chuo.
4. oi.
5. if got 5 stars how many will u give.
6. diao.
7 bye bye

7 person to pass the MEME to...
this is a stupid meme i know but sorry have to pass to 7 stupid ppl i know will do this type of stupid things also haha.
1. HUDHA!!! definely u will do it.
2. Huixiang
3. Rachie
4. Angel
wah shit i am running out of people after 4 cause i dunno alot of stupid ppl like me.
ok give up, cause i tink only they will do this haha.

wow i am glad i am still surviving after all this nights shoots, shoot 13 days seems like 13 months, but 11 more days to go, gosh!

ppl mus be wondering why i nv seems to slim down although my job sounds slavery and working at night. Let me tell u all why. Cause the food caterer wah liao lei, dunno issit oil prices had dip recently, all the food they cater are bloody oily, drink soup like drink oil, and their food all bloody fried or curry 1. THen u all know all night shoot, den u mus like eat food or drink coffee to keep u awake, i drink alot of coffee and eat alot keropok they keep in the pantry. As most ppl sld know, coffee is bitter in the first place, in order to make it sweet, u have to add tons of sugar to change from bitter to sweet, plus all those creamer, i think they are the second killer drink to diabetes after coke.

shooting has been tough, but luckily for the guys there, shoot has been fun, i have learn realli alot alot alot alot alot, i tink the shoot i do here tt i learn is more den studying for 2 yrs of film in sch. u realli have to work in the industry to know hw tough life is outside and dun have the luxury of all the stuff in the sch, like blondies red head lights, reflectors blah blah, at there they use either bulbs or dido lights, they use polyfoams as substitutes to reflectors, they use lantern as filter to lessen intensity of lights, and seeing them using the steadicam and crane is realli an eye opener for me. the gaffers and the grips teach me alot of other stuffs in the industry also and tell me the last thing to do is to argue with the producer or director, if nt u might as well quit this industry. Guess i have to endure endure endure. 18 more days ppl.!!! but i am badly dreading the report and presentation, i sucks at presentation and more then half of the time i guess the audience dun even know wad i am toking about.

las sat celeb sandy bd, go kbox, wow wow wow, can sing shan hu hai, fa ru xue and ye qu already, wah i sucks at ye qu and shan hu hai sld practise more. guess my singing form has drop in recent yrs, wow tink back of my glamorous days during the voiceout singing in front of the auditorium, feel like a star for tt day, sigh but now jialat, qiao cui liao, fat alot liao, my hair is in a bloody mess, cant wait to cut it off.

ok need to go for shoot at 1 am later, which is liek 1 hour later hais sian. sayonara.

i got A FUCKING BIG SHOCK when i saw my callsheets for my shoot, Fri and Sun. My sat are suppose to be my off everyweek.

THURS-FRI 5pm-12pm the next day, I am definely sure it will run till 5 pm because we can only use the location there the last day at cck. The most fucking thing is i am in the art department i have to go 4 hrs early to set up the place. FUCK

SUN- 4am - 11pm I am definely sure it will overrun till gods know when. And fuck again. Have to come 4 hours early to do set up. DO i fucking hell need 4 hours to set up a fucking small toilet with 3 cubicle and 1 basin. FUCK.

I am so veri tired... jus came back from shoot at 4pm and have to go for shoot later at 1am... hais this marathon just never seems to end... 8 days of shoot seems like forever. still got 16 days left and 1 more month to end of attachment. pls let this end pls let this end pls let this end. still will have nightmare of i oversleeping for shoot.

but good thing is the crew there are nice, teach me lotsa stuff, now i know wad is the most useful things during production, c stands, sandbags and gaffer tapes, you can absolutely cannot do things without this 3. tink i will miss the guys especially those crew from malaysia like ah ming, brandon they all, tells u alot of their working manner at malaysia also, and where to get the cheapest dvds haha diao... but just want this to end soon so i can return to my normal routine. my timeclock seems so wrong now, sth i wake up i dun even know its day or night, is monday or tuesday, i am totally blur. pls end this soon. i need sleep. i miss those 8 hrs of slp.giv me back my slp.

thanks to all those ppl who wished me and celb my bd with me willing to accomodate to my busy schedule... thanks alot so much... sorry for so late to thanks u all also cause too busy n tired to blog.

gonna share wit u guys my working experience in this industry which i tink will be bored for most of u guys. but i gonna share it anyway hohoho!!!

the industry can be easily summarise in 1 word, its inhuman! its cruel! its is a bloodsucker!!! it makes u feel like a sugarcane being squeezing through that machine and squeeze out every juice of you for just 1 cup with ice for 1 dollars!!!!!!!!!!!!!! especially when u r a bloody intern getting a measly pay of 450 a month and working for 90percent of a month

ok thats more den 1 word.

for the pass 1 and a half week have been going for midnight shoots, times varies from 1am - 1pm, 330- 230pm, wadever tings u can tink of i have done it. props, art direction, gaffer, runner anythin but crew side diao. but its nice working with those talented cast, i have seen ppl like adrian pang, lim yu beng, pamela oei, casbian, sani hussein they are realli good. they can like joke n tok to u 1 second and u can c them in action a scond later. hai anyway 1 more month!!! come santa claus i cat wait to c u hohoho in front of me come come come come come

shoot will end by dec 15 by the time come i will be the happiest man in the world.

cant wait to return sch. i wan be cameraman, i wan to direct, i wan to work as a proper crew, i wan do a short film, a documentray a music video i wan to do everythin b4 i graduate !!! i wan to have fun with friends, i wan go ktb sing jay new songs i wan to drink till i am drop dead, i wan play mahjong till i hu till i mad!!! most importantly i wan to slp until a beauty kiss me n wake me up from my slp!!!

I am Tagged!! WHOA!! by Sandy Ter-Nay

Rules: Post 5 Weird and Random Facts about yourself, then at the end list the names of 5 people who are next in line to do this.

1. I have a habit of farting on the phone b4 i hang up the phone in the past, which i had been stopping myself doing it since i came to poly. In Chinese i call this "Pi Bie", last time i still wrote a song with the music of Jacky Cheung most popular song "Wen Bie", but sadly, does not earn alot of recognition. In English i call this, "Fart You", in more slang way, On Your Face!

2. Er and i have a habit of staying in the toilet shitting in my room for half an hour if i am veri free and nth to do at home, I must bring something to read in my toilet no matter how urgent i am, and i must on the Hi Fi in my room also, blast it loud, 5 stars shitting manner. Sometiems even after finish shitting, i can still sit on the toilet bowl, half naked, continue reading my newspaper or magazine till i finished it, er got 1 time i still can chit chat with Sandy and Tak Yee on the phone discussing going to KTV while i wa shitting. Er i think next time my friend come my house dun dare touch my phone, newspaper and magazines anymore.

3. Er enough of shit and fart. Er this 1 maybe my poly friend will be shocked to know but my sec sch kakis now and i will be laughing tinking back of the past. I am A CHAO AH BENG during my sec sch days. Last time my sch, Naval Base Sec Sch, my class is the most havoc is the whole school. Everyday detention, hair everytime behind got 1 hole, cause my discipline master veri shit, c who long hair, grab one bunch of hair from ur back and just cut it!! Den the whole grp of boys will rush to the nearest barber to sch. I tink the barber n the discipline master buck up 1 now think of it. I still do alot of things b4 like smoking, throwing chairs at teachers. got 1 time most paisei, i make fun of the national anthem during the assembly get caught by teacher, pull me to go on stage to sing by myself, wah that must be the most embarassing moment of my life.

4. Er this 1 i tink only ppl who went on the YEP trip with me to Thailand know, but i am going to disclose it now. It is abt shit again. I was in the girls room chit chattign with the girls, again, when i suddenly had an urge to shit, actualli wan go back the boys room to shit but quite lazy, den the girls say can shit here cause i also everyday smell their shit er ppl like adeline the person wit the most shit, kaili, dion er dun say liao if not they forever cant be married because of me. THen while i was shitting halfway, the door suddenly opened and it was HUIXIANG!!! the door was spoilt and was not locked properly. WAH I was so f**king shocked, faster grab my pants on 1 hand and tried to close the door, but too late, luckily i censored myself properly, until today i have still no idea has Huixiang see anythin wrong.

5. Er cant tink of so many paisei moments. Just say another one of my weird habit ba. Not veri weird too maybe, er most guy like to slp without wearing t shirt o right, wah but i cannot dun wear 1, an even though is veri hot or i fever, i must put on a blanket to cover my legs no matter wad.

wah type so long sia. Wah this blog is getting veri shitty, no wonder it stinks.

Now i also passed the baton to
1. Hudha
2. Rachie
3. Judy
4. Faj
5. Cheryl

PROPS NEEDED!!!

People i might need some help for u guys, cause i am responsible for props for a drama i am doing in Moving Visuals and if you all got any things tt i need that are listed below pls call me and inform me i need it before wednesday but preferably Tues.

List:
1 credit card - any credit card tt can or cant be used anymore, old and bit dented is ok but still look presentable will do.

1 table lamp - must still be working is those normal studying desk type of lamp.

1 cartoon bedsheets and pillow case - for single bed, the cartoon must not be new er maybe cartoon characters tt is 10 yrs ago like mickey house blah, is for a boy so definely not hello kitty.

15 child storybks/ comics - must be eng type also 10 yrs ago stories or comics, eg. enid blyton, marvel comics or beano asterix blah blah...

1 eyelash curler - crimpler type, preferablya old tt u might nt be using anymore but still working.

6 safety cones - this 1 honesty is the biggest prob for me cause i dunno where to get so many, is those orange small cones tt u placed on the road when car break down to warn others, if u got how many also can just inform me so i can try ask around also.

Thats all i need so far, all the things borrowed will be returned as soon the shoot is finished which is around mid dec, if u all realli got all this pls inform me cause my deadline veri short only... thanks for all ur help given...

King of Errands

24 erands in 2 weeks, even had to come back on weekend to do errand and move furniture.
Undoubtely, King of Errands.

hmm i today wan to openly apologies to miss toh kai li... cause dunno hw long ago... i n ken got sort of conflict with her... den ppl who know her actualli she also know la she veri easily bad tempered ... so tt time we 2 name her in the top 3 person we dulike to work with...we nv realli spread this la... is like only 1 or 2 person know ba... but somehow she knows it... i sincerely apologise to her for saying this in the past... this thing has been cropping on me for a few weeks since she tell me she know... i know i am veri veri bad to say this but sometime things u say u nv thod ppl will hear it and sometime u spoke without realli using ur brain... but i know she is ok la but i know whoever hear tt will be hurt.. cause is she came tok to me abt this 1 ... but realli tt is the past la i find u more mild tempered now now so bad but still room for improvement sincerely ... u r nw definely the top 5 ppl i wld like to work with : )

actualli i think everybody will complains abt their problems to ppl working wit who and who... i am one of those... like even my good buddy ken... i work for him for so long cant possibly be so smooth sailing all the time.. surely got times i cant stand him and he cant stand me... i find him stubborn sometimes la but everybody is ... the most unforgettable one is with huixiang tt time for web design which i guess ost of u know... realli regret quarrel wit heer tt timeif nt we might enjoy our yep trip together more n become much closer... but i realli cherish u as a little sister : )

hmm i will like to apologise to ppl who might know wad i say abt u in the past... but i nv meant to let ppl know to blacklist ur name and reputation but sometie u just wan someone to hear your problems and stress and unhappiness... i hopefully hope i can work closely with my grp ppl for remaining of my poly years... treasure the last few months we had ppl before we graduate... make this year a memorable and unforgettable one even for years to come : )

iap sucks

hais attachments has been bloody sucky lets me put wad i have done for this week

mon - spends at least 4 hours sitting down doing nth
- burn publicity photos
- labelling tapes
- move mirror

tues - spends at least 2 hours sitting down doing nth
- errand 1, deliver tape to mediacorp, errand 2 correct camera equiptment at tanjong pagar
- medias catalogue, this so call media catalogue is just throw away all the old magazines

wed - spends at least 1 hour doing nothing
- move their furniture and magazines to room, all by myself
- errand again go bukit merah library borrow dvds, and wad the hell they nv pay their fine must walk until interchange to top up.
- at least something proper, edit auditions tape for casting for clients

thurs - on this day i am king of errand, go bukit meah collect barcode film, go orchard wisma collect camera, go buy tiger beer for party, buy locks for oversea trips.
- edit audition again

fri - finally no errand but help dion n helen buy lunch dunno consider anot hoho
- type music cue sheets
- sort out old files which is bloody hell equal to throw rubbish also

so overall i spend half of my attachment time doing errand, another 1 third doing nth and remainder do some useless stuff. but the good things is the ppl there are nice except for...

fri after work met up wit ken... er make it a thing to made up wit him every week... its nt easy to get a realli gd fren in poly i tink... i tink the period where u realli meet ur best friends is during sec school... but in poly... dunno why i see alot of gossiping and backstabbing... and sort of comparing of results and probs of working in grps... so i realli cherish the closers 1s i have in poly... know from him a lot ppl sick in sch so ppl pls take care of urself... weather being weird recently...

yesterday meet chucky dion kaili go ktv. kaili complain to m abt her attachment, i can understad the feeling of doing nth when u see everybody is busy. i feel so shit like coolie i tink the sch y nt just attach me to dhl or fedex their uniform nicer also. hais work sucks. how i hope i am attached to the new company i am supposed to go to... when i call ms irene to say abt my scenario she quite nice la but tell me wait a few more weeks starting is like tt and say actualli might considered a gd thing cause tt place is famous for alot of things to do... i dun mind doing things la... but i dunwa spend my attachment doing errands, move things around... buy things... i might jus rot at home.

recently had a dream keep dreaming abt a girl... er anyay is not a wet dream. i have been dreaming abt this same girl for 2 time in this week. she is a girl wearing uniform... damn she must be my dream girl or wad i jus cant forget her face... too bad my drawing nt good if nt can draw it out...

there are only 3 dreams in my life tt i can rem so clearly... 1 is the previous 1... the other is when young i dream abt dinosaurs terrorising the whole world... and 1 outside my door blowing fire wanted to come in... everytime tt moment den i wake up

wah another 1 haha is abt wit my poly classmates we r like dunno playing wad games den i forget is who but is some one who went i turn my head suddenly strangle me den i wake up wah tt dream bloody real sia i wake up tt time still feel ppl strangling me.

i am now so in love with jay new song duet i tink is with nan quan ma ma the lara... i manage to get the demo 50 secs version dun ask me hw i get but wan can get fr me u will love it... anyway for ur info my biggest idol is jay chou and eason chan hohoho!!! i know almost all their songs!!!

hais just hope next week will be better. cheers!

i think the problem with me is i found it hard to forgive and forget... maybe its being a trait of a scorpio... but i dun realli believe in those horoscope shit... but dunno y i got a problem wit ppl who i know backstab me n talk behind my back... tts y i always will rem wad those ppl say n do and make my own life so miserable... but i know it is a people trait to gossip n tok abt ppl which is one of my fav pasttime... but i tink i sld let it go n try to forgive nd thus make my attachment more pleasant instead of being cold and make it worse...

hope i can do tt : )

yo cant believe i am back for another post... cause today simply to free whle day at home... hais not feeling veri well i got my first fever for almost 4 YEARS!!! the impression of a dengue first appear in my mind luckily i still shit quite alot so sldn't be dengue hoho... and plus my muscles has been aching after playing badminton few days ago... wah my back n arms is like the yoko yoko advertisement... tts wad happen to ppl who haven been exercising much...

today my class ppl hav a gathering at tcc... hais nt feeling well so nv go.. but actualli in the first place dun realli feel like goin to cause the so call "friends" i can talk n lame alot to all nv go so nv go n the ppl goin r those topics n converAtion i cannot get into too... in my words i cal them the ang moh chiong chiong chiong gang ppl.. it means ppl who speak alot of ang moh n lke to go chiong so they are call ang moh chiong chiong chiong!!!

ok since i am so free its time for a oLc movie reviews again.

CORPSE BRIDE>> Animation is almost perfect and wonderful... but story jus remind me of a copy of Qian Nu You Hun and Liang Shan Bo conbination... dosen work out for me... mor elike a musical... i give u 3 stars sorry...

Wait till u're older>>watch this today... dl 1 haha sorry for being a pirate.. this story is simple... a 12 yr old son hate his family especially hs step mum which he think is the reason y his mum commit suicide 3 yrs ago... thus he wants to grow old so he can leave home... den he accidentely get a potion which cause him to grow 10yrs older everyday... it was then he realises his family realli care for him especially his father... n the fact it was his mum that was actualli the 3rd party is a gd sort of twist... solid acting performance by felix wong and ANDY LAU especially... the scene when felix wong which is the father when slap andy lau which is around 80 yrs old make me heartbreak... its wasn't the story but the acting tt touches me... unbelievale... 4 stars for u

ok tts all for today watch out for more reviews... cheers!

hmm think this will likely be my last post before i left for attachment... sld not complain n fa lao sao anymore haha must leave NYP in harmony so people will not remember me as a grumbling person must leave down a good impression, thinking should i paste a full length poster of myself i avid to let u all rem me but i scare when i come back with see alot of tiny holes in the poster so better not risk doing tt.

have to plan my next few days well with my friends and family... cause i know likely to have alot of night shifts and be quite busy so wouldn't have much time to meet up with you guys... feel very bad towards my family been busy in sch recently nv been coming back early... i can like a few days nv c my parents cause they have to wake up early so they they sleep early... means i come home they slp i wake up they go work already... guess have to reind sth like tt for another 3 months...

hmm this yr after my bd goin to be twenty... my cousin once tell me a man upon reaching 20 will have alot of things to worry... money... going work... going army... after army must work study or choose to be in army... basically this things nv seem to have a full stop... hais alot of things to worry... haha but people do not forget me will try my best keep in touch wit u ppl take care and cheers!

no man, either ordinary or extraordinary will have no troubles...

dengue!!!

Guess most of you have heard how dangerous yishun has become due to the dengue outbreak that has become more scary than terrorists. Two of my classmates living in yishun has become victims of the deadly aedes mosquitoes. I will bring you guys a tour of my yishun area.

Above is the map of Yishun, Street 72 which is the proud area i am living in for the whoel of my life. My old block is 760 , the block i currently living is block 737. You can see those block in red are considered the "danger" area of dengue area. Block 762 is the block of my fellow classmates Norudin, which is one of the poor victim.

As you can see my block 737 is almost surrounded by those danger block, so beware of those ppl who come to yishun, please hire me as your tour guide to bring you the safest and fastest route to anywhere you want, at just $2/ hour. Call me at 91812 *** to make an appointment right now!!!

bloody hell

argh i hate this bloody feeling of people talking about going clubbing at night, going for holidays, goin out, having fun, watching movies while i have to go school everyday, doing all sorts of things reaching home having to think of graphics and other bloody sort of work for all those group works. Nobody even bother intative to help while people come school for a few hours and just say hey i got something on, got to go, bye!~ and even though i got alot of bloody complaints during my editing is because when u r already coming sch everyday really wanting to do some real work u dunno how the hell to start it when u c the content u got!!!!! so bloody hell allow me to have my own complaints n u all people dun start complaining about people when u all have complaints urself!!!!

and god please look at chuinfang, when i leave avid at 8 30 pm today she is still editing alone even though we guys tell her to go home dun do alone an only girl somemore, and grp members please i heard u ppl going clubbing, going watch movies going play soccer and i c her coming to sch everyday in the early morning till 9pm editing alone almost everyday n u ppl jus come n go as u r happy, n worse some like jus come sch eat lunch n go home, she dun even had the time go time canteen sit down have a proper lunch n always need up to pack food for her when we go down, jus 1 ppl stay n acc her k... no matter u r who, director ,producer ,ad u sld all stay ,she can jus dun be there during ur shoot too but i c her there evrytime n cameraman jus cant shoot some crap n thod u finish ur job, work done, holiday time!! spare a thod for ur poor grp mates k people~~~~!!!!!!!

hoho relax sing song play ping pong

Finally my group have finish our docu (sort of) cause still have to made some change to lecturer comments but overall turn out quite good. My this grp turn out quite good... actually in filming this course, it is realli hard for a grp to work well together n not have any conflicts... tts y i cherish this grp of mine even more as i tink everyone done their parts well... think i will miss this grp but since 2 of my members also my noiretblanc grp so i will only miss woring wit faj hohoho!!! hear tt fa zhi li na

today can i c how conflicts working in a grp can damage a friendship... some ppl i feel is can be a good friend but u jus cant work wit them... tts wad i learn most inthis course.. maybe i am one of this sort of ppl in other ppl mind... u will nv know wad ppl tink of u but remain optimistic in a bright way is good.

anyway finally can relax awhile... dunno if will resuem the last gift this month but i dun tink will able to shoot in less than a month anyway so i tink jus rather push forward to after iap. another good news i going to an attachment call vnc dunno wad new company but is near sch wahahaah yeah!!!

phone booth

wah i am veri tired... alot of work... jus finish taking my stupid dphoto dunno will turns out good anot... ti kong bo bi!!! den my scriptwriting done halfway... worst thing is the docu graphics n packaging... totally no idea and cant find the fonts i want!!! tink mus be due to too long nv do graphics...

anyway while takig a 1 hour break i saw phone booth on tv... surprisingly it is a good show... the movie is just less den 80mins long... n more den 1 hour of the show jus happen in a phone booth. the story is about a not a veri good guy (colin farrell) taking for granted his perfect wife and always fantasise abt this women who is katie holmes... den 1 day while he walk along this street a phone booth ring... it is like even if it is anybody u cant help it but pick up a call when it rings rite... so he picks he the call... den this person on the phone happens to know everythin abt him... den when a guy tries to provoke him... the person on the other line dunno from where shot him down... den everybody on the street saw wad happen n accused colin farrell to be the murderer... den he still tok to the person on the phone... den police soon came den threathen here n there... ok la shorten it in the end he became a good guy...

i know it is a lousy summarisation... but i am amazed to know this hollywood movie is shot in only 10 days... and even though the whole movie jus happen in a telephone booth... it is so intruiging and excitign to watch... what i was most amazed is the director is joel schmacher... cause i nv like his movie... from batman forever to phantom of the opera i feel it sucks... so maybe i will look out for his other movies now.

producer yeah!

hmm feel abit sad when read a fren blog... cause i am doin a docu and i am a producer... but i have been asking my grp to go to the bakery quite a no. of times and been asking them to like shoot overnight with long unbelivable hours... although some nv realli speak up their unhappiness i can somehow feel it... i know u all are all veri tired... when u all tell me u cant go i had nv force u all to come too cause i know u all r tired and had sth to do too... but i am together wit u all in this thing and the main thing is hope the whole thing will end up good....

i know i not being a veri good producer cause i know i not good at public relation stuff like talking to people and try to be friendly and cork up a conversation... people who know me well sld know i veri bad at tt but i been trying my best and hope things will get better...

in the first place i nv intend to be a producer and nv want to but the rest already say what they wan to be and i hav no choice but to accept this role... i know that if i nv do it nobody will do it cause this is a role that nobody wants to have...i know i may seem not doin alot of stuff but trust me my whole mind now is always abt this docu every min and second that i had neglected my other modules...

hope things get better and tomorrow will be a better day!!

OLC MOVIE REVIEWS

Wohoo happy national day very free today so u guys are lucky i am gonna give u all a movie review as i have watch a lot of movies n dvds recently. Below are my ratings.

***** - WHAT THE HELL YOU WAITING FOR STARING AT THE COMP!! GO WATCH RIGHT NOW!!!

****- WHAT THE HELL YOU WAITING FOR STARING AT THE COMP!! GO WATCH LEFT NOW!!!

*** - WHAT THE HELL YOU WAITING FOR STARING AT THE COMP!! GO WATCH CENTER NOW!!!

** - WHAT THE HELL YOU WAITING FOR STARING AT THE COMP!! DUN WATCH RIGHT NOW!!!

* - WHAT THE HELL YOU WAITING FOR STARING AT THE COMP!! GO SLEEP RIGHT NOW!!!

Ok i now the ratings make no sense but its my blog anyway so noone can stop me anyway wahaaha!!

Charlie and the Chocolate Factory- I watch this yesterday and i had walk at least a thousand miles to watch this movie as all the bloody cinemas yesterday are full house. SINGAPOREANS!!! STOP GIVING CINEMAS A REASON TO RAISE TICKET PRICES!!!!
anyway i am going to continue wit my critic. Simply reason i watch this is i am a Bloody Big Fan of Johnny Depp and Tim Burton AND I am a Bloody Big Fan of the book. Woo this movie is just so nice and sweet and heart warming that makes u unknowingly smiles throughout the movie. Although the jokes are sort of lame but is for kids anyway. but adults will love it too cause i love it. AND Oompalumpas!!!
RATING - ****

Wedding Crashers - Wah cow i cant believe i watch this movie in the first place but its damn damn damn damn damn funny. haven watch such a funny movie for a long time. And if oLc says it funny it is realli damn funny, and trust me for whoever likes watch dumb shows this is the one for u! HUDHA DID U HEAR TT?
RATING - ****

Million Dollar Baby - This is one of the most unforgettable movie i watch. It is currently ranked no1 of my fav movie. I jus admire Clint Eastwood so much, bloody hell being the director the producer the male lead also trying to save the cost and dun let ppl earn his money. But the actings are solid damn touching. Its about a poor middle age woman who want to be in boxing to change her damn life. but the coach finds her too old for her to be 1. aiya dunno how to say jus go watch its damn good. Simple shots simple directing fantastic lighting.
RATING - *****

Matchstick Man - What the hell y i suddenly give all so good ratings for the movies i watch. Nicholas Cage best performance i ever seen. Thrilling and great twist although a bit cliche. But stylish directing by Ridley Scott.
RATING **** and a half *

Woodsman - This must be the shortest feature length film i ever watch. 80 mins long. Abt a child molester who jus got out of jail and like u know everybody look down on him and avoid him. Any molest crimes come police first one find him. But the story talks abt how he fantasises his sister when he was young and how he battle his problem. Sound like a porn show but its now. Brillant acting by Kevin Bacon
RATING - ***

HOSTAGE - I just watch this dvd like 15 mins ago and oh my god its damn good!! i borrow this dvd because dunno wad else to loan and its damn bloody good. It categories thriller horror and things that excites u. Its abt a negotiator who has quit his role as he cost the life of a whole family during one of his mission. Since then he change to being a simpler man but refuse to tok abt his problems wit his family. One day when one family kanna kept hostage in the town he working as a police he decide to step out of it again. But guess wad his family kana kept hostage and to rescue them he had to rescue tt family and a bloody piece of dvd. Bruce willis is good remind me of stone cold steve austin. for people who dunno the name he is a wrestler.
RATING - ****

LOST IN TRANSLATION - I cant believe i finish watching this piece of shit and i dunno what the hell critics are thinking rating this most boring movie i ever watch so highly. totally boring piece of shit!!! waste my 3.30 bucks
RATING - 1 * and half more * for putting me to sleep so soundly

Mystic River - I watch this after i watch million dollar baby as i start to research on clint eastwood style. Again simple shot and low budget. but fantastic directing n lighting. story not as strong n revolting as MDB but gives a good morale of story.
RATING - *** and a half *

Ok thats all for today. ans continue stay tune to OLC review. and for the stupid dunno who put a comment in my blog what i need to advance. Sorry but i tink u sld be the one going and stop adding stupid comment.

hoho starhub yeah!!!

hoho today a great day to blog... cause guess wad my grp which consist of hudha rachie and andy chung xu yong won 3rd prize for the starhub competition... which i nv realli expected too as in the first place i will already be happy enough to get a consolation but i guess our hard work is recognised. I cant wait to share my job wit them but too bad all 3 of them are in attachment now! : (

it is considered "hard work" because my grp filming at hudha corridor house at that unforgettable midnite take jus like 1 hour to film finish... but in the end we vandalise the poor wall which look worse den those loanshark owe $ pay $ spray. Thus we spend 4 hours carrying bucket n water in n out of the house and scrubbing and drying out wit all sorts of nonsense way which i tink nyp cleaner auntie will laugh if she see it. We use er... newspaper, toilet paper i tink,,, den 1 most mini looking scrub with a pole i ever seen haha. But at least we still had a great time making a joke out of it and i still remember tt day deeply in my heart.

anyway thanks to all my friends tt had help to vote for our work even though we nv win the most popular award. but at least our grp 1 is consider the best in terms of filming cause the first 2 prizes went to those graphics and animation which i no doubt tink they deserve it.

eeee

work is piling and about to set the tallest work pile record ever in my life which is slightly taller den mount everest.

1- docu, dunno why i end up as producer for it thou i realli wan to be editor for this but gues someone still hav to do this in the end. Hav to find all damn old bakeries in spore so if anyone know pls inform me thanks. dateline- before week 15

2- dion short film, the short film that nv seem to be able to finish, hav been shooting for 10 weeks and i tink only done about half, no time to film because of actors schedule and sch modules. dateline- er the earlier the better.

3- scriptwriting- my most hated module cause i simply cant write script, esp in eng. 25 full length pages. dateline- next fri

4- asian cinema- another stupid module that hav to keep typing. i gotta write for shiri of and joint security area which both i dun realli like. dateline- next thurs

5- digi photo- Oh NO! can u believe this!! another report assignment and soon i can be a pro in Microsoft word. hav to write a min 500 words essay of a photographer which is a veri hard thing for me as the only pro photographer i know is Oh Liang Cai. dateline- next tues.

6- my own short film- hav to think of my own bloody script which i hav been sourcing ideas for long. Hint to ppl- it will be most a comedy which i hav nv done b4(surprising to ppl who know me as i came to this course wit big hope to become the next Stephen Chow). dateline- i giv myself before week 15

7- the bloody M1 not hip and not happening- hav to submit the romantic resturant by this fri, but this episode i nt realli involve jus giv comments and help as much as possible. dateline- this fri

8-intro to entre- this is a veri dangerous and suckiest module i ever known and to warn all ppl nv take this module, i tink i hav known absolute nth in this module and hav to go present some shit i nv even know wad is goin on. dateline- presentation this sat.

so as a conclusion, i guess if i manage to finish all this work, i hav type almost 50,000 words and maybe more. so after typing this blog post, it added another 500 words i think which is the requirement for my photographer essay. YeAH!! and to ppl at iap now esp rachie and hudha dun giv up! i guess they wun make u do logging forever. be patient k. hope to cya all soon. miss ya all!!!

goodluck for those goin attachment next week...

wow... haven been blogging since first day of semester... which means 1 month and 10 days ba agaration... just putting a small post... haven been blogging cause been too busy wit school work and filming... normally by the time reach home would just drop dead go slp or rushing my reports hais...

anyway the main purpose of putting this post is to wish hudha, rachael, andy, erwan and rachel lim good luck in their attachment... sorry no chance to say personally to u all on friday... take care ar and remember to stay in contact!!! hope to cya all soon!!

first day of semester

feel really moody today... alex came and talk to me about my grp problem also... dun realli feel i am part of the grp now... hais cant realli bring up my own mood... so rent alot of dumb comedy dvds to watch hope will cheer me up slightly... hais go watch liao hope tmr will be a better day...

damn the school!!

what the hell is goin wrong wit my world and wad the hell is the school doing... they giv me digital photo in the first place and now suddenly i check the timetable i got 3d animation and i nv even request to change module or want tt module in the first place... i hate tt cause i noe i not suitable for tt.. shit the school does they know what the hell they are doing actualli anot change module and nv even send an email to inform the students and i just know tmr i got 3d animation... damn the school!!!

mr lonely

just came back from boon,my cousin birthday... jus a simple early celebration cause he is goin to army next fri... hais... 1 more less people for me to talk to when i got problem or lonely now...

i didn ha alot of people or good friends to share my feelings in my mind now maybe only 2, my best fren n my cousin hais so 1 lesser now... feeling like mr lonely in the song lonely right now...

Im so lonely so lonely,
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own

today one of my grp ppl send me a msg to explain to me everythin.. didn noe u people will read my blog so didn mean to vent my unhappiness on purpose for u all to see... jus a way to let out my stress... so ppl dun mistaken... normally the day after i will jus take it as nth happen and carry on wit my this type of life...

anyway i wan to giv a short lecture about lateness, it not to means anythin about my grp problem, but i jus wan to say sth about my own opinion...

during a group work... if there are 5 person, if 1 is always late for example... the 1 or 2 other member will slowly feel why they come punctual for... den 1 or 2 will start to late for awhile also... maybe starting 10 mins... den slowly increase... den the 2 other not late will slowly ge sick of it and lateness will turn off ppl patience no matter how good a person patience is...

enough of lateness i wan to end this once and for all today... no more topic about tt anymore...

no more

the whole world blame me that time because of the huixiang matter...

now my whole group blame me just because i dunlike 1 person for being late. the whole world had changed, the person who is late is not at fault but the person that reprimanded her for being late is. they say she is naive and i was wrong to scold her, they bring all sorts of old histories to shoot at me and break me down to thousand pieces... they bring back hui xiang matter when i had totally forgotten about it. they say they are afraid of working wit me... they put all sorts of hurting comments on me. this is the first time i break down in front of a friend. i have nv done tt n i will not do tt again.

she can show all the people all the bad things i tok to her in msn but did she ever show ppl those chances i giv to her instead...who can be so sick enough to keep the conversation on msn jus to show people tt i scold her... she can say all the bad things and complain to all sorts of ppl around me but i now jus dun feel like bothering... let it be... i hate backstabbers to the core . Fuck all the backstabbers that have been fucking behind my back and fuck off to the other world!

i dunno if i can ever work with them again... i always lose in the battle of heart to heart talk... guys is always the one at fault... if i am a girl i dun tink i will be in the situation i am today... all girls target me 1 guy and u know u will nv win any supports from the moment it started... i tink i am just taken for granted in this world for trying to do my best for my part to assist my grp members to lessen their load of work n stress... but nobody is ever on my side when things go wrong, i miss the days when assignments is done on my own, i miss my secondary sch friends... i miss the yr 1 days and friends... i miss them, thinking of them make my eyes goes red.

they feel hurt when i say her but did they feel anythin at all when they say all those to me... we discuss today how to say to a grp member of not doin her part well as scared of hurting her feeling as she is sensitive... but did anybody body care about how i feel if i was sensitive or wadever... did anyone ask me about my feeling of what you all said... does any real people out there really take me as a friend... does anybody really care about my feelings and how i feel to all those words...i have wonder for a long time on the way back in the train...

the good thing about a blog is you can say all your unhappiness and no 1 is able to say u back.

the whole world can all blame me but i nv feel i am wrong cause i did it for the goodwill of that person.

SIANS!

its 2 45 am in the morning and i have jus finished giving up doing the m1 3gger graphics... hais recently just cant to do some decent graphics... actualli recently do any thing also no mood and haven realli put any heart into doing... guess i am too exhausted... work nv seems to stop since the short film assignment period... half hearted work is always not going to work

now waiting for champions league football and at the same time tried to accompany huixiang alonger more cause she working night shift alone at the company and she is so terribly scared when i merely mentioned ghosts haha silly girl... anyway liverpool yeah! although i support man u 1... tmr must reach sch at 10 to submit the graphics to ms pat ... hope wun get shoot by seah or any hais... mentally, physically, psychologically, still got wad ly.. hai jus basically exhausted...

thank thank!!!

woo life has been so super busy recently... have to go sch to have meeting about the stupid m1 3gger... also had to recee for my group fyp shortfilm ... also have to try to do starhub competition(feel quite bad nv help out much sorry andy rachie and hudha)... and finally coming up maybe will be doing is helping jack neo do a making of of his coming up movie about ex- convicts and how can we help them. if we r goin to do tt we will be going inside a real prison hohoho!!!

woo the day b4 yesterday when jack neo tok about his tt film it immediately remind of me my short film hoho around same idea la but tt film sucks! actualli we r goin to do the i not stupid 2 making of but dunno y he wan us do tt 1 i tink is because tt 1 shoot earlier. toking to jack neo is quite intimidating but he and the company ppl r nice... dunno if i am too excited or wad when shaking hand wit their production manager i say thanks den hudha stare n giggle at me i den realise i say sth wrong haha end up tt whole day keep been making fun by her. not sure yet if we can do the making of cause is going to be in june and there when the semester start so not sure if can fork out the time to do it, if we r goin to do tt i can predict i will be damn farking tired tt month.

yesterday went around receeing wit my grp... hmm not veri fruitful cause dun tink we manage to find those places we wan but find out a lot of place in spore tt i nv know of... i dun tink anyone will know in marin bay tt park there are some big statues of chinese historic ppl like guan yu , confucius, hua mulan, qu yuan, zheng he, blah blah blah in somewhere of the park. den there r a lot of funny birds tt cant normally be seen in spore.

ok i tink today this posting quite boring cause is quite boring to me also hohoho tink i gotta tink of the design for the 3gger logo liao ... hais sian... den the mr seah today wah rem i pek chek... he say wad we suppose to meet thurs y so many nt here... den i rem he tt time say is fri meeting den i tell him den he say no way cause i fri got meeting i cant have say its on fri... make me dun feel like saying anythin ok anyway boring day.. go watch dvd later... finding neverland hoho sayonara

Wah this past weeks have been travelling arounds singapore finding nice hangout and chillout places for a sort of magazine programme for m1. wah tell u all ppl also dun believe... in 3 days i tour... chinatown...maxwell rd...ang siang hill... clarke quay... muhammed sultan road... telok blancah... pasir panjang... sixth avenue... holland village... orchard ... town... wah and some other sort of wulu sammy places people will nv thod of going... but not bad at least if ppl next time ask me suggest to go where i can suggest alot hohohoho... but sandy u better dun tell me suggest go where for the 0305 outing... our grp ppl is just so un sporting... is there such a word? ok bey steady haha my eng nt veri gd so use some jiapalang language... but realli wan to try meet up once tt time yr 2 the meet up so un successful in the end only 6 pathetic ppl go the ucla or nypc eat ...

wa we went 2 boutique hotel which suggestly means small hotel but premium service.. wah we went a hotel in chinatown call hotel 1929 which is name after the street no. wh inside there are all sorts of funny chairs and the room decor r nice sia... but the staff attitude is 1 word to describe... sucky!

the other boutique hotel is at chinatown maxwell road scarlet hotel!!! wah inside chio sia... their room still got dunno how many stupid theme... their staff wear those dracula like coat wah only 1 word describe stylo... couples can go there pak tor until face veri scarlet ... people can check out their website at http://thescarlethotel.com/... chio website also hohohoho...

so next time people want go where chiong can ask me although i nv chiong 1 hoho but i can giv u all plenty of suggestions for cheap and good places... huang dao zui zui zui xia yi qi zai jian!!

sick:tired:dead

hmm recently feel quite weirdly... have my ups and downs... 1 of the good thing is i manage to meet my best friend to eat dinner recently... this best friend of mine wah quite a curse dunno is good thing or bad thing also know him since pri sch den same sec sch den same class somemore... den i repeat o level wah suey he always repeat wit me.. wah thod poly can get away from him liao wah cow same poly also but different courses haha... haven manage to meet alot... now is like every 1 yr meet up less den 10 times i tink ... when we meet up for dinner tt day also happen to c one of my sec sch gd frens ... haha had dinner together..

times realli flies... around in less than 1 yr time i will be graduating from poly and go to army blah blah blah... throughout all this yrs... friends seems to be leavign u ... nv manage to realli get contact wit most of them... wonder how r most of them now... hmm i hope my this grp of poly mates will stay in contact realli lov working wit u guys...

speaking about working... i not sure if i am a popular person in terms of tt... cause i always seem to have disagreement especially with girls whenever i working with... and recently i am veri sick of this girl tt i am group with... i treasure her as a friend but she disappoints me as a groupmate.

today i am quite pissed wit her... she know i hated her for being late and she still have the guts of smsing 1 of my grp mates lets compare who will be more late or wadever shit... she is late for almost 40mins and thus we wasted around tt period of time to discuss... do u know how much thing i can do in 40 mins and how much time of my time u wasted in total and u know how much things i can do wit tt... from now onwards i swear i wun giv a damn abt whether she late or do her part in her work... i jus keep quiet... maybe alot ppl might say i am a hard person to work with bad temper or wadever shit... but i am those type of person, if u jus do ur part i will be happy enough... actualli i quite like my this grp but jus because precious time is always wasted because of her... i am nt here to complain or spread bad words abt this person. but i am already quite sick of it... i had to voice out somehow... she has been a good fren whenever i am down.. especially the period when my grandma pass away... but i realli hope she will change her bad habit of been late... it realli pissed me off and make me dun feel like or motivated fo doin any work after waiting for her for at least half an hour everytime.

my next short film...

being busy all this while with work... so haven been blogging... still i am busy now anyway...

busy with a industrial project call 3GGER tts is supposely for m1 for the current most in gadget 3G handphones... we have to shoot videos about the muost fun cheapest things in singapore in other words means cheap and good !!!

currently also working on my friends short film ... again the cameraman haha so scare in future dunno anythin except camera only... also i hope to write a script for a short film i want to direct... i want to dedicate this film to my grandma... its is about cigrattes and smoking... my grandma is a heavy smoker all the while... but knowing being passive smoker is nt good she never smoke when around her grandchildren... sometimes will get nagged by my parents uncles aunties... but i know she will nv want to do anythin bad to our health... ok haven realli develop the story... but tts wad i have in mind ... hope i can tink of a good script and hopefully able to film it...

i will never forget you...

March 21 2005, 2340, the time when my beloved grandma left me... it was so sudden... before i left school that morning... she is still in my room helping me to pack up my stuff ... the moment i reach home, 2240, my mum tell me to go down to go down to the hospital with her, say she might couldnt make it...

this grandma of mine is the closest part of my family.... even more closer to me den my parents or sibling... since i was born i was look after by her... as my parents are both busy working... i remember the days she will bring me to the park near my block... fetch me to n back from the kindergarden... buy me the fishball from the fishball auntie outside my kindergarden... stop my parents from caning me when i was naughty, accompany me to wait school bus when i was in primary school n wait downstairs for me when the bus fetch me back... even till when i was in sec or even poly she will still come to my house often to help fold our clothes clear my stuff... when she saw my wallet was empty... she will always leave some money inside my wallet for me to spend... she know me best den my mother... my favourite food, who is my good friends... what i dislike...

she was always veri healthy n fit for her age ... 76... even though she was a heavy smoker... but falling down inside the toilet n hit her head cause her death... but the doctor say is because of heart attack whick i find it ridiculous as my family doctor say that her heart n health is completly fine n healthy... but i tink it might due to the fact tt she has to look after one of my little cousin... jus 9 years old... as mu aunt jus pass away barely 5 months ago... i was 1 out of 2 of her grandson tt she had take care of her life... after her death... i saw my father cry for the first tme... it breaks my heart even more... my father was a veri quiet person, hardly laugh or talk, but when he cry... i cant take it...for the nexct 2 days whenever i was alone or saw her photo i will cry to myself... like now when i was typing this my tears drop unknowingly... i try to find wadever of her stuff i had of her now... her cigarattes her coin purse her photos...as i am afraid when i grow up old i will forget my grandma... but i know i will never forget her...

everynight whenever i was at my grandma funeral... i was alone to myself... sometimes i hope my friends will be around me to have someone to talk too... although some say wan to come but i say nvm but deep inside i hope someone will be there for me to talk too... but i fidn it hard to jus say to them directly how i feel... actualli i am veri disappointed that my best friend of 10 yrs nv come althoughi he got send me a sms to encourage me... i tink blogging is the the other alternative to thrash out all my feelings n thoughts i have keep inside for this few days as i tink i cant take it anymore 8 months ago my other grandma pass away, 5 months ago my aunt, n now my grandma... hope i will feel better after this...

moody...

been in a pretty moody period recently...

i went to orchard today... to discuss some work n supposely find some costumes for some things but change plans due to budget problem... i went out wit dion n ken today... feel realli bad mood n temper easily flare up today due to some personal problems... nv realli tok much today... when they we was at hmv i wanted to go off den they say wan to listen some more songs so i jus say i go off first n leave... ken giv me a cal later but phone got cut off due to low batt... so i wait up again to find them again in case he mistaken i giving him an attitude problem or wad but couldn't find them when i go out i walk around the whole hmv n wait at the level 1 for a while... around 15 mins late i still cant find them so i decide to go home anyway./.. as i walk to the control alot of things went through my mind... things i hav realli tink of in the past... jus as i was goin to enter the control dion suddenly rush in front of my givin her veri easily excited look again ... first thing she say luckily we wait here for u sorry... but its nt their problem actualli.. cause nt in a good mood today anyway... den we decide to go cineleisure to eat... as we walk dion say if i nv appear jus now we will go down to yishun to find u with waffle icecream ... cause today i realli feel like waffle icecream dunno y but cant find... feel quite bad deep inside my heart actualli... hav such nice friends but treat them abuit like shit today... n after tt they actualli can take bus home which will be a faster n more convenient way for them... but i tink they wan to accompany me so they decide to take the train wit me together... nice friends i have...

works are piling up... although there are alot of other works like cp n 3d max which are goin to due veri soon... but i haven even start to even on the program to do any bit of work... inside my mind is jus the magazine program n short film... our mag prog is realli sucky cause i tink we nv prepare well as we r too rush... also they lighting problrm n nt enough content n interesting facts... my short film is realli bad... my audio... i cannot nt realli transmit my idea of wad i wan to my dop so i end up holding the camera myself for asome shots ... i am a realli bad person in transmitting my idea to words.. so normally during grp work if preferably i prefer to do most of the things y self... nt because i am a idividualistic or wan to prove i am hardworking or wad... my lighting problem ... my story end up veri super boring.. i knew i could do a thousand times better den tt...

aftwer knowing my coming grp of my sp n yr 3 fyp i am quite sad by tt too... this means most of the time u will be wit ur grp members n will not c ur other mates for a long time... like botak ken... faj... noisy hudha... alwyas chuckling chucky, rachael cheryl ling they all... my grp girls takes up the majority... but wad i most worried inside is.. cause i hav a some sort of dispute wit girl in my grp... so i dunno how are we goin to walk together... i am nt veri close wit the other guy in my gp 2... so i tinking if like i offended 1 of the girls den of course girls will alliase each other den will make me the bad person in the end... maybe i have been thinking too much but this type of things happen alot to me b4 so i am quite ... i always seem to be the bad guy in most quarrels so... hais...

today will hopefully be the last day of shoot... dion short film... 1 last scene... hope she wun be too adventurous today cause i am her dop... wish me good luck...

e yeah!

what the hell!!!!!!! finaqlly i finished my filming!!!! hor hor hor hor hor hor hohohohohohoho!!! all thanks to my fabulous crew who have to struggle with me under the chinatown hot sun which i estimate is hot enough to cook an egg, (ok half boiled egg) wow the sun was torturing, the location was torturing, the camera n its battery is even torturing but thanks hope everything came well when it come to editing, cant wait to meet up wit u all guys again but guess we have to wait until the end of week 15 to realli hav a wrap party...

this is for faj...

faj... upon knowing what happen to ur mum ... i feel very much for you... cause i know losing ur dearest ones is the saddest things in life... but life have to go on k... so have to take good care of urself and ur whole family... in school sometimes maybe some of us nv seems to say much to u is maybe afraid of saying the wrongs things especially ppl like me who say without thinking but just to let u know ppl all around u really care and concern about u... and guess ur mum will realli love to c u live well n grow up well... we friends will always be around for u!

betrayers

ok firstly i will have everybody an early happy new year n gong xi fa cai..

hmmm today is not a good day... cause jus realise today our schedule is so packed n all the assignments are back for more action. during grouping today ... our groups seems to have made enemies with the whole class... ok firstly i will tok about wad happen... it is the yearly grouping seesion again where group hav to group to do projects... but my group feel this grouping is terribly important especially it is link to 3 of my most important modules editing producing directing... tts y we want to hav the not realli to hav to be the best but ppl who can work well with one another... cause i know even if draw lots somebody will still say change group 1 n i guess correctly in the end some people realli suggest tt... tts y i feel sld hav jus group ourself in the first place, save time n happy wit wad u r wit if nt after awhile we will hear again ppl back stabbing each other saying how the person is veri hard to work wit blah blah blah...i know some people are talking behind our back n calling us bad names n unhappy wit us , i hear names like betrayers blah blah blah although they sound like jk but somehow i know they still meant sth but imagine urself being force to work wit people u do not like to work n for me especially late people ... i will find it harder to work den... actualli i would also realli liek to work wit alot of others people in our class like ade which i hope i had the opportunity to work wit her 1 day after my docu experience wit her as she is a veri responsible n motivated person... n people i work wit b4 n enjoy workin wit like faj n other people i nv work wit b4 but realli like to work wit r ppl like rach hudha andy... there are some people in class i realli respect in terms of their work commitment n ideas .

wah n today i c our new studio... woo fantastic... super high super nice... haha n miss irene still suggest me first 1 try next time demonstrate to our junior... hmm i saw tt 1 remind of the happy studio proj days.. fun den miss irene had a little conversation wit me she ask if i am like to work as studio director... hmm den i say some stuff... actualli it is real stress but real satisfying... great feel... anyway sorry to the whole class for my group being so extra hope next time will jus let us choose our own group happy new yr again...

Conclusion

hmm i am going to summaries how my this week goes... it consider quite a busy n hectoc week cause all my assignments due this week so its all the late nights n rush hours again but luckily able to submit everythin in time but nt veri satisfy wit my 3d logo cause feel too simple so i expect myself nt to do well for this asignment but nvm hope i will work harder for the reamining assignments den... wah but jus when u thod u finish everythin den i hav to worry about my script again tink i hav to tink of my final draft quicn n fast n always hav no idea n its time to do my documentary again... hais... the thod of it make me veri sian cant realli give me a peaceful while without tinking of any work to do... this make me remember the days at surin again where u hav no worries, stress, work, relatioship problem, money matters, tinking of ideas blah blah blah problems... hais so peaceful those times were but everythin seem to goen in a flash n i am almost through the second half of my second yr...

but this week learn quite alot from my directing class.. guess wad lim yu beng is here.... but when i tell alot of my friends they dunno even noe who the hell he is guess he is nt so popular after all although i can only rem him act in triple 9 n anna n the king. woo i tink jus his acting class alone make me learn more from the the rest of the module lectures... upon learning wad an actor sld do i realise it sld be good thing tt all those wished to be a gd director sld go for actign class first. it is such a fruitful lesson n ic how my class ppl can act... woo fantastic stuff, especially andy woo my drama actor i have find the best actor hoho but also through tt know alot of more sensitive n sad stuff from my classmates... haha i was acting some nonsense thing again tt day i tink i acted realli bed in the waking up every morning cause i brush my teeth with a towel wad the hell was i doin guess i was too anxious or wad den the situation haha i dunno wad else to do jus go up n sit n turn around n shout ho seh la! end up whole class laughing haha but overall it is quite fun la cant wait for next week to come although lim yu beng look abit intimidating at times.

Safe sex, wear condom!

i watch a documentary recently, about those poor kids in africa having aids n there is this foundation helping them. Hmm poor kids... the moment they born into this world they already had this disease its like they didn't do anythin wrong in the first place n had to end up suffering their whole life being discrimated n outcast... hmm den i hear dido, saying as they was interviewing superstars to get ppl to help out those kids... she was saying... if a person with aids is honest enough to tell you that she had aids, how will you treat her n think of her... will u avoid her at least 1 km distance away in future or will u help her in whatever u can... hmm this sentence she say make me think for a moment, i tink i like most person with avoid the person, but hope next time after watching this docu, i will not jus judge a person n look through a matter more carefully in future...

actualli it might not be jus aids, it might be alot of things in this society tt is happening now, like transvestite, people will look at them in a different manner, also maybe like people who being to jail, n this led to me writing a script about an ex convict tt is being shunned by family,friends n people around him, couldn't find a job n couldn't get the second chance tt he desperately needed.

people might always thod ppl wit hiv r always maybe horny or perverts tts is being how to say i also dunno how to say... maybe it wasn''t their fault in their first place. so i encourage to all people out there, safe sex, wear condom!

BAD

sometimes people just cant understand me. i also start to believe ppl is hard to be trust. When in Thai Surin, when a girl- friend of mine got drunk, den when i might obliviously take extra care of her cause when u c a girl drunk u jus cant let her do wad she wan rite wit all the unknowns thai man n other guys around which u not know what they might do. after tt den everybody mistaken i like the girl. i find this real silly lo, its like even if it is other fren , my cousins even my mother i also will do the same thing lo, its a person natural feeling rite. den maybe i tense to feel too sensitive den i feel tt girl after the thing begin to avoid me tense make me feel upset bcause when u try to help ppl den u let them get mistaken or somehow wary n avoid u, but luckily everythin is clear now.

den today jus realise tt a friend of mine thought tt i go purposely tell another friend tt she break up wit her boyfriend. i was quite upset because of this thing. the story behind this is tt, tt day knowing my friend had jus break up wit her bf, den some of my friends call me come out to cheer her up den i go lo, den tt day is new year eve, got a fren sms me happy new year den i reply back lo den she ask y so lae still haven sleep den i say because i n wit the group of friendsl lo, den because the girl tt jus break off wit her bf is supposely celebrating wit her bf tt day, den my fren ask y she wit us. den knowing tt she is her gd fren also den i thod if she know gt 1 more ppl concern n wary of wad she say when wit her in future. den the girl go ask the girl how is she. den the girl thod i anyhow go tell ppl about wad happen to her n her bf. the next time i saw her, she suddenly tok to me in a veri fierce tone which is veri unlike her y u go tell her about wad happen to me n my bf, den i was veri stunned n somehow hurt wit tt. its like everythin i do is because of a piece of good will. y mus ppl always misinterpret wad i did.

i also find it hard to trust ppl now because of sth tt i dunwan to tok about it anymore, bad day bad mood, bad progress in my assignments, BAD.

when can i finally watch aviator?

woo ... finally can take a breather for a short night to write this... have been torturing by scriptwriting for a while. wah i guess i sucks at tt firstly i cannot put down my thoughts n wad i visualize into words especially english n also i sucks at thinking stories ideas. Hmm got 1 girl call dion say my blog boring!!! wad! a blog is not a block is one of the most entertaining blogs around. u c, where else can u hear blog tt say borders is call borders cause tts where all the bordest ppl hang out! no where else rite. hmm also feel quite nice tt my freshies got coem visit my blog, so long nv meet up wit u all. when u thod tt someone tt might hav forgotten u or nt veri close to u spend the effort to read wad u type n think it feel quite nice actualli..

hmm actualli today after lesson wan watch aviator but shit man all the earliest time at all cinemas is 8 plus n the show is 3 hours so if we watch finish is 11 plus so nt veri gd for health so end u dragging here n there we end up in j8 tok at mos burger talk talk talk until i forget wad time tink 8 plus.

actualli nowadays i keep having a bad feeling... feel sth bad is goin to happen to me... dunno how to explain the feeling, but just dun feel as confident in wad i do n wad i tok as b4, tts y when sometimes my frens tok to me in a harsh way or give me a pissed look, i dunno if its realli for real or jokingly as many ppl feel tt i am nt a veri serious person in terms of talking or wad so they might dunno they had hurt me or make me upset unknowingly as i normally wun express how i feel. i am the type tt normally wun speak or say anythin even if i realli in need of help or upset, guess tts a sort of independence anyway...

hmm actualli recently looking at the people around us n during conversations n observing, people always felt tt others are taken themself for granted, hmm sometimes it may be due to senstiveness or because its urself unknowingly tt the person means sth to u inside ur heart. hopefully i hope i am not taken for granted although i seem like a person who dun care about this type of small sensitive things, but i do realli care n definely feel appreciated if ppl acknowledge my presence n contribution.

yunzhi...

hmm jus finish watching zhong shan yun xiao... wah i drop my tears without even knowing it... the story is a hk drama say until 1 guy call yunzhi.. find out tt his wife still luv another guy which is his best fren. He always lost to his best fren in everything since they was young so in one way of another he admire him alot but somehow will also will be jealous... hmm so he went to rome for his duty as he is a pilot... also he went there at tt period of time is to giv his wife a chance to be wit the other guy call yichen. actualli i all along thod the character i admire the most is yichen... i think he is the type of guys girls will go for.. responsible... successful... good guy but after today episode i realli realli realli admire yunzhi character alot... even though he always lose out to his fren ... the only thing tt he feel he is luckiest is to hav his wife but even though he know his wife likes another guy he still willing to let her find her own happiness... n in the end he dies because he want to save a kid from being knocked down by the car... when he dies he is still smiling also ... actualli quite creepy hor but ok la not bad just now...

wah today actualli intend stay at home do 3d max den find out tt the video to do cant be seen... den i call my fren ken to go back sch do together upon reaching sch we find out tt assignment is actualli due on week 6. upon knowing tt i begin to slack already. den suddenly got another fren call dion come. wah she come even break down our concentration haha den we end up go eat dinner actualli intend eat dinner den go back do work den end up talking until 8 plus den go home. wah we went from south canteen talk den can talk all the way to the track n field there. wah reach there we still can walk around the track 2 round barefooted look quite stupid actualli but when i c ppl coming i tell them stop den can go home cause i also wan to watch zhong shan yun xiao luckily i nv miss today if nt i will regret for life.

borders is where the bordest ppl hang out

hmm its being hmm let me c around 6 days since i last blog.. hmm cause the past 1 week n a half i was rushing my docu like shit n had no time for almost everything else but at last it had finished... although i admit it is not realli good... but it is the effort tht me team n one freelance helper hudha!!! tt make me enjoy the whole process although i admit it is tiring n make my blood boil because of the stupid com system n the lecturer who chase me out of the lab.

jus earlier ago, we spend our whole day finding ways to save our docu... we try every means o manner... like copying in the avid room... but dunno y end up 12 mins instead of the actual length 16 mins , also the comp lab dvdit program dunno issit because bought in jb or wad cannot use 1 luckily thanks to mr linus who helped us digitise the video into dv tape saved us! i feel tt all the dfv lecturers r realli realli nice ... its not like the normal teacher we usually thod of tt giv airs n dun realli interact wit u much or giv a teacher high air impression.. they r realli nice especially when i tink back of the studio project day... actualli the lecturers n staff finish work at 6 but for us they willing to stay till as late as 10 almost every night to assist us n to close the studio, n the next day they had to came early around 8 plus to open the studio for us... n miss irene too at first during my mtv segment i was quite irritated tt time cause because ppl infront of me overrun den she thod i overrun anot den she yell at m make me realli pissed at the moment especially when i was so stress being the studio director at tt time but she realli help n guide us like a mother alot in the sp n especially in the docu in the thai trip...

finally we are able to show the premiere of the docu today... hmm had to say again it is nt realli gd cause we r veri rrush n wit no experience in this thing too ... but after seeing my fellow peeps reactions n comments i am quite glad they appreciate it n giv us some constructive comments... wah when i hear the ms katherine want us to do an 1 hour docu instead i almost want to faint... cause i miss alot of lesson recently,, like producing, cp n i nv realli pay attention during the 3d max n i got big problem wit my next assignment... so i wonder if hav to do the docu again its realli quite a strain for me n my fellow members hope the others can tink in our pov... but if they realli wan a long 1 i will hav no second thoughts of doing it again cause at least after all the late nights n rushing ... after seeing ur finishing product ... i will feel gradually satisfied like all my work in eother design or video.

wah today when hudha n lenny suddenly tok about the borders is the bordeest place cause tts where all the bordest ppl hang around i feel veri amused hoho cause at least they can rem sth i wrote in my blog hohohoho ok la due to overwhelming response i will giv another joke but since i cant tink of 1 now i will entertain wit my jap lesson jokes kaka ka a sausage ok since hudha hav hear of t too i will teach another 1 shi shi she has long hair but this 1 nt realli funny ok nvm i will move on

wah cause i heAR fr 1 of my freshie tt they is a conflict in my class now hmm quite disappointed to hear tt ... after tt i go hear some of my freshies blog... hmm tink most of them r enjoying wad they r doin now so i am glad for them n if any of u r reading this u all can find me anytime if need either help in work or class problems... i will be realli willing to do wadever i can.

wah i type so much finger abit tired giv it a break. hav a kit kat

arigato hudha!!!

hmm... still in sch again at 8 50 pm... feeling realli lousy today... yesterday wasn't able to sleep early because went to help my cousin wit something, and also feel realli uneasy at home recently cause recently got a malaysian working at my mum n uncles coffeeshop assistant come n stay here temporarily... just feel realli uneasy when someone u don't even know come here n stay n dun realli know wad to do at home nowadays..

another thing tt make me feel veri bad is because of my computer corrupting.. because of tt i cannot bring parts of the docu video to edit at home while the rest of my group members hav to rush like shit to submit the video by tmr... realli feel quite bad... the digitizing n rendering has take up damn alot of timr... everytime we cannot finish in time to save the files so hav to save in the sch com, but the next day when some of the video gone missing realli make me pissed off... feel realli bad today too because of a bad flu... have to force myself to focus n concentrte... tts y today sometimes feel abit irritated when my frens talk to me abit harsher but maybe is because i am unwell u quite lousy mood recently tt make my feelings abit more sensitive... realli hope to do more for the docu... n thanks to hudha too... have being helping us alot this 2 days... with an extra pair of hands it realli help us do our work faster... thanks hudha... hope we can realli finish this by tmr if not all our hard work will gone to waste...

docu docu docu

wah, its 9 pm, and i am still in nyp com lab doing my docu editing, hais now can only wait for the video to digitize , the com say54 mins remaining, hope it will be faster then that... hais any my home com hardisk is corrupt, so cant use the com currently, now everyday at home cannot online feel so uneasy n bored, now i know y borders is call borders cause it is border than the boredest person.

深深深

okay... today is the second d ay of 2005... the moment i wake up, i see raining cats and dogs outside my window again, the moment i c the heavy rain i fall back to sleep again this shows how much late i must have sleep this morning.

the moment i wake up finally, i went to hear a old song from my idol Hacken Lee... the lyrics goes like this...

无奈 你说你淡忘你说你淡忘 即使多么凄怆
面上剩下渐已吹乾吹乾眼泪两行
我说我盼望 我说我盼望可相恋多一趟
但是但是现已心知心知这是渺茫

this is actualli a cantonese song... if u all dunno this song is one of the song tt make hacken a househeld name in hongkong now...
this part of the chorus translated in eng means, cant help it, you say u have forgotten about all the past no matter how hurtful it was, but u still end up crying tearfully...
but me i wish i pray that we could fall in love one more time but inside my heart i know it is almost impossible...

ok maybe if u all dunno, this is one of my all time fav song, i find the lyrics veri meaningful, its like one of the relationship i have gone through, imagine a person u loved say she had forgotten the happy times, sad times u all onced had, how will u feel... but inside my heart although i hope we could still be together i know it is impossible...

hmm tts a very long time ago, but today i nv meant to jus tell my past, hmm n i had slowly learn to carry on... cause i know alot of people around me are going through relationship problem... just wish to tell them, if u realli find the one you loved n cherish u,hope fully vice versa the person loved u too... take hold of the chance, cherish the times u all had cause u all might nv know wad happened in future...

and after reading the newspaper this morning, the tsunami disater had gone from bad to worse, hope tt god is not punishing us because of all the terrorist attacks, riots tt the world are through, if it is hope he/she can give us 1 more chance n hope world will come to peace soon...

2005...

It is 7 39 am in the morning... i have just finished bathing after coming back celebrating new year with my poly friends... We went to boom boom room first... den after some of my friends had go off i and 2 other friends actually intend go cine cathay watch meet the fockers but sadly we never did cause tickets left 2 but we got 3 ppl... so we stay at the ljs there eat eat there talk till the first train come.

Hmm.. actualli i thod i was spending this holiday alone again but luckily my friends rem me n ask me out haha, i guess after i post my previous post they was afraid i will be lonely at home ba so they veri nice ask me out thanks rach dion n ade... hmm but actualli yesterday dun realli feel like goin out too cause i was quite broke n my atm card spoilt no atm to withdraw my money haha sound stupid n worse of all i dunno y yesterday my stomach feel funny keep feeling a pain once in awhile... but i hear tt one of my fren had break off wit her bf so my fren ask me to go down to cheer her up n of course i must but i tink i nv do much to cheer her up too cause me myself was feel abit uncomfortable so sorry about tt...

Hais... i was quite afffected by the relationships problems my frens around me are facing... One of my fren had broke off wit her bf... i know no matter if ppl break off wit u or even if its u that initiate , it will still be painful...i understand tt feeling... Who can jus end a long term relationship wit someone u once loved without having feel sad, guilt n emotions... but things always had to move on.. so cheer up soon my fren... Also one of my guy fren... feel quite sad for him cause he like a girl but the girl dun realli like him as in being as in a relationship, but knowing he is a nice guy she also dosen want to hurt him... As a friend, after seeing him do so much for a girl, i dunno if i sld encourage him to continue his pursue cause i feel it is quite pointless but i know he realli like the girl n wun give up so soon... but i also find it hard to say things to make him give up... its liek u knowing he is like a headles chicken going nowhere but u cannot make urself to stop him aiya i also dunno wad i am saying but think most of my friends can understand...

2004 is over... at a moment jus now... when i tink back 2004... it is a very sad year for me... @ of my closest ppl around me had passed away... my grandma n my aunt who is also my next door neighbour in my old block for 16 years... i always had 2 biggest regrets in life... one is not doing well for my o level in the past, i had waste 1 yr of time because of tt... and most importantly i disappoint my parents n relatives who had great hopes in me... but after tt i had change, i am no longer the olc that always a good for nth, not concern about work n family, wasting my life off doing useless things... I hope 1 day i can accomplish sth n do well in my course n make my parents proud of me... i realli wan to do tt tts y i am working veri hard ever since my poly start, i put alot of effort in my work no matter it ends up good or bad... n because of my seriousnes wit my work... someimtes during group... i end up having conflicts wit my friends... but i hope they could understand me... cause i realli wan to do well n i hope i can motivate them to do well too...

for my second biggest regret... is not able to c my grandma one last time before she passed away... i was watching movie at that time when i got the call from my cousin tt she passed away... i had feel so bad n guilt ever since... i had so much to say to my grandma now... but hope she is happier now at the other end of the world... cause she had suffer alot this few years wit diseases n sickness... ah ma.. i miss u....

Ok... hopefully 2005 will be a happier year for me, my family and my friends around me. Hoped everybody around me could find love n joy n cherish every moment wit ur loved ones u had... sayonara...