Saturday, January 01, 2005

2005...

It is 7 39 am in the morning... i have just finished bathing after coming back celebrating new year with my poly friends... We went to boom boom room first... den after some of my friends had go off i and 2 other friends actually intend go cine cathay watch meet the fockers but sadly we never did cause tickets left 2 but we got 3 ppl... so we stay at the ljs there eat eat there talk till the first train come.

Hmm.. actualli i thod i was spending this holiday alone again but luckily my friends rem me n ask me out haha, i guess after i post my previous post they was afraid i will be lonely at home ba so they veri nice ask me out thanks rach dion n ade... hmm but actualli yesterday dun realli feel like goin out too cause i was quite broke n my atm card spoilt no atm to withdraw my money haha sound stupid n worse of all i dunno y yesterday my stomach feel funny keep feeling a pain once in awhile... but i hear tt one of my fren had break off wit her bf so my fren ask me to go down to cheer her up n of course i must but i tink i nv do much to cheer her up too cause me myself was feel abit uncomfortable so sorry about tt...

Hais... i was quite afffected by the relationships problems my frens around me are facing... One of my fren had broke off wit her bf... i know no matter if ppl break off wit u or even if its u that initiate , it will still be painful...i understand tt feeling... Who can jus end a long term relationship wit someone u once loved without having feel sad, guilt n emotions... but things always had to move on.. so cheer up soon my fren... Also one of my guy fren... feel quite sad for him cause he like a girl but the girl dun realli like him as in being as in a relationship, but knowing he is a nice guy she also dosen want to hurt him... As a friend, after seeing him do so much for a girl, i dunno if i sld encourage him to continue his pursue cause i feel it is quite pointless but i know he realli like the girl n wun give up so soon... but i also find it hard to say things to make him give up... its liek u knowing he is like a headles chicken going nowhere but u cannot make urself to stop him aiya i also dunno wad i am saying but think most of my friends can understand...

2004 is over... at a moment jus now... when i tink back 2004... it is a very sad year for me... @ of my closest ppl around me had passed away... my grandma n my aunt who is also my next door neighbour in my old block for 16 years... i always had 2 biggest regrets in life... one is not doing well for my o level in the past, i had waste 1 yr of time because of tt... and most importantly i disappoint my parents n relatives who had great hopes in me... but after tt i had change, i am no longer the olc that always a good for nth, not concern about work n family, wasting my life off doing useless things... I hope 1 day i can accomplish sth n do well in my course n make my parents proud of me... i realli wan to do tt tts y i am working veri hard ever since my poly start, i put alot of effort in my work no matter it ends up good or bad... n because of my seriousnes wit my work... someimtes during group... i end up having conflicts wit my friends... but i hope they could understand me... cause i realli wan to do well n i hope i can motivate them to do well too...

for my second biggest regret... is not able to c my grandma one last time before she passed away... i was watching movie at that time when i got the call from my cousin tt she passed away... i had feel so bad n guilt ever since... i had so much to say to my grandma now... but hope she is happier now at the other end of the world... cause she had suffer alot this few years wit diseases n sickness... ah ma.. i miss u....

Ok... hopefully 2005 will be a happier year for me, my family and my friends around me. Hoped everybody around me could find love n joy n cherish every moment wit ur loved ones u had... sayonara...


1 comment:

Rachael said...

olc...so glad that you and weng heng could join us at boom boom room in the end. I'm glad you enjoyed yourself. Hmm...I really feel bad that my feelings cannot grow for him. But thanks for understanding. He is sucha nice person and hope that he and YOU of course have a great year ahead.