hmm i am going to summaries how my this week goes... it consider quite a busy n hectoc week cause all my assignments due this week so its all the late nights n rush hours again but luckily able to submit everythin in time but nt veri satisfy wit my 3d logo cause feel too simple so i expect myself nt to do well for this asignment but nvm hope i will work harder for the reamining assignments den... wah but jus when u thod u finish everythin den i hav to worry about my script again tink i hav to tink of my final draft quicn n fast n always hav no idea n its time to do my documentary again... hais... the thod of it make me veri sian cant realli give me a peaceful while without tinking of any work to do... this make me remember the days at surin again where u hav no worries, stress, work, relatioship problem, money matters, tinking of ideas blah blah blah problems... hais so peaceful those times were but everythin seem to goen in a flash n i am almost through the second half of my second yr...
but this week learn quite alot from my directing class.. guess wad lim yu beng is here.... but when i tell alot of my friends they dunno even noe who the hell he is guess he is nt so popular after all although i can only rem him act in triple 9 n anna n the king. woo i tink jus his acting class alone make me learn more from the the rest of the module lectures... upon learning wad an actor sld do i realise it sld be good thing tt all those wished to be a gd director sld go for actign class first. it is such a fruitful lesson n ic how my class ppl can act... woo fantastic stuff, especially andy woo my drama actor i have find the best actor hoho but also through tt know alot of more sensitive n sad stuff from my classmates... haha i was acting some nonsense thing again tt day i tink i acted realli bed in the waking up every morning cause i brush my teeth with a towel wad the hell was i doin guess i was too anxious or wad den the situation haha i dunno wad else to do jus go up n sit n turn around n shout ho seh la! end up whole class laughing haha but overall it is quite fun la cant wait for next week to come although lim yu beng look abit intimidating at times.
Sunday, January 30, 2005
Monday, January 24, 2005
Safe sex, wear condom!
i watch a documentary recently, about those poor kids in africa having aids n there is this foundation helping them. Hmm poor kids... the moment they born into this world they already had this disease its like they didn't do anythin wrong in the first place n had to end up suffering their whole life being discrimated n outcast... hmm den i hear dido, saying as they was interviewing superstars to get ppl to help out those kids... she was saying... if a person with aids is honest enough to tell you that she had aids, how will you treat her n think of her... will u avoid her at least 1 km distance away in future or will u help her in whatever u can... hmm this sentence she say make me think for a moment, i tink i like most person with avoid the person, but hope next time after watching this docu, i will not jus judge a person n look through a matter more carefully in future...
actualli it might not be jus aids, it might be alot of things in this society tt is happening now, like transvestite, people will look at them in a different manner, also maybe like people who being to jail, n this led to me writing a script about an ex convict tt is being shunned by family,friends n people around him, couldn't find a job n couldn't get the second chance tt he desperately needed.
people might always thod ppl wit hiv r always maybe horny or perverts tts is being how to say i also dunno how to say... maybe it wasn''t their fault in their first place. so i encourage to all people out there, safe sex, wear condom!
actualli it might not be jus aids, it might be alot of things in this society tt is happening now, like transvestite, people will look at them in a different manner, also maybe like people who being to jail, n this led to me writing a script about an ex convict tt is being shunned by family,friends n people around him, couldn't find a job n couldn't get the second chance tt he desperately needed.
people might always thod ppl wit hiv r always maybe horny or perverts tts is being how to say i also dunno how to say... maybe it wasn''t their fault in their first place. so i encourage to all people out there, safe sex, wear condom!
Sunday, January 23, 2005
BAD
sometimes people just cant understand me. i also start to believe ppl is hard to be trust. When in Thai Surin, when a girl- friend of mine got drunk, den when i might obliviously take extra care of her cause when u c a girl drunk u jus cant let her do wad she wan rite wit all the unknowns thai man n other guys around which u not know what they might do. after tt den everybody mistaken i like the girl. i find this real silly lo, its like even if it is other fren , my cousins even my mother i also will do the same thing lo, its a person natural feeling rite. den maybe i tense to feel too sensitive den i feel tt girl after the thing begin to avoid me tense make me feel upset bcause when u try to help ppl den u let them get mistaken or somehow wary n avoid u, but luckily everythin is clear now.
den today jus realise tt a friend of mine thought tt i go purposely tell another friend tt she break up wit her boyfriend. i was quite upset because of this thing. the story behind this is tt, tt day knowing my friend had jus break up wit her bf, den some of my friends call me come out to cheer her up den i go lo, den tt day is new year eve, got a fren sms me happy new year den i reply back lo den she ask y so lae still haven sleep den i say because i n wit the group of friendsl lo, den because the girl tt jus break off wit her bf is supposely celebrating wit her bf tt day, den my fren ask y she wit us. den knowing tt she is her gd fren also den i thod if she know gt 1 more ppl concern n wary of wad she say when wit her in future. den the girl go ask the girl how is she. den the girl thod i anyhow go tell ppl about wad happen to her n her bf. the next time i saw her, she suddenly tok to me in a veri fierce tone which is veri unlike her y u go tell her about wad happen to me n my bf, den i was veri stunned n somehow hurt wit tt. its like everythin i do is because of a piece of good will. y mus ppl always misinterpret wad i did.
i also find it hard to trust ppl now because of sth tt i dunwan to tok about it anymore, bad day bad mood, bad progress in my assignments, BAD.
den today jus realise tt a friend of mine thought tt i go purposely tell another friend tt she break up wit her boyfriend. i was quite upset because of this thing. the story behind this is tt, tt day knowing my friend had jus break up wit her bf, den some of my friends call me come out to cheer her up den i go lo, den tt day is new year eve, got a fren sms me happy new year den i reply back lo den she ask y so lae still haven sleep den i say because i n wit the group of friendsl lo, den because the girl tt jus break off wit her bf is supposely celebrating wit her bf tt day, den my fren ask y she wit us. den knowing tt she is her gd fren also den i thod if she know gt 1 more ppl concern n wary of wad she say when wit her in future. den the girl go ask the girl how is she. den the girl thod i anyhow go tell ppl about wad happen to her n her bf. the next time i saw her, she suddenly tok to me in a veri fierce tone which is veri unlike her y u go tell her about wad happen to me n my bf, den i was veri stunned n somehow hurt wit tt. its like everythin i do is because of a piece of good will. y mus ppl always misinterpret wad i did.
i also find it hard to trust ppl now because of sth tt i dunwan to tok about it anymore, bad day bad mood, bad progress in my assignments, BAD.
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
when can i finally watch aviator?
woo ... finally can take a breather for a short night to write this... have been torturing by scriptwriting for a while. wah i guess i sucks at tt firstly i cannot put down my thoughts n wad i visualize into words especially english n also i sucks at thinking stories ideas. Hmm got 1 girl call dion say my blog boring!!! wad! a blog is not a block is one of the most entertaining blogs around. u c, where else can u hear blog tt say borders is call borders cause tts where all the bordest ppl hang out! no where else rite. hmm also feel quite nice tt my freshies got coem visit my blog, so long nv meet up wit u all. when u thod tt someone tt might hav forgotten u or nt veri close to u spend the effort to read wad u type n think it feel quite nice actualli..
hmm actualli today after lesson wan watch aviator but shit man all the earliest time at all cinemas is 8 plus n the show is 3 hours so if we watch finish is 11 plus so nt veri gd for health so end u dragging here n there we end up in j8 tok at mos burger talk talk talk until i forget wad time tink 8 plus.
actualli nowadays i keep having a bad feeling... feel sth bad is goin to happen to me... dunno how to explain the feeling, but just dun feel as confident in wad i do n wad i tok as b4, tts y when sometimes my frens tok to me in a harsh way or give me a pissed look, i dunno if its realli for real or jokingly as many ppl feel tt i am nt a veri serious person in terms of talking or wad so they might dunno they had hurt me or make me upset unknowingly as i normally wun express how i feel. i am the type tt normally wun speak or say anythin even if i realli in need of help or upset, guess tts a sort of independence anyway...
hmm actualli recently looking at the people around us n during conversations n observing, people always felt tt others are taken themself for granted, hmm sometimes it may be due to senstiveness or because its urself unknowingly tt the person means sth to u inside ur heart. hopefully i hope i am not taken for granted although i seem like a person who dun care about this type of small sensitive things, but i do realli care n definely feel appreciated if ppl acknowledge my presence n contribution.
hmm actualli today after lesson wan watch aviator but shit man all the earliest time at all cinemas is 8 plus n the show is 3 hours so if we watch finish is 11 plus so nt veri gd for health so end u dragging here n there we end up in j8 tok at mos burger talk talk talk until i forget wad time tink 8 plus.
actualli nowadays i keep having a bad feeling... feel sth bad is goin to happen to me... dunno how to explain the feeling, but just dun feel as confident in wad i do n wad i tok as b4, tts y when sometimes my frens tok to me in a harsh way or give me a pissed look, i dunno if its realli for real or jokingly as many ppl feel tt i am nt a veri serious person in terms of talking or wad so they might dunno they had hurt me or make me upset unknowingly as i normally wun express how i feel. i am the type tt normally wun speak or say anythin even if i realli in need of help or upset, guess tts a sort of independence anyway...
hmm actualli recently looking at the people around us n during conversations n observing, people always felt tt others are taken themself for granted, hmm sometimes it may be due to senstiveness or because its urself unknowingly tt the person means sth to u inside ur heart. hopefully i hope i am not taken for granted although i seem like a person who dun care about this type of small sensitive things, but i do realli care n definely feel appreciated if ppl acknowledge my presence n contribution.
Thursday, January 13, 2005
yunzhi...
hmm jus finish watching zhong shan yun xiao... wah i drop my tears without even knowing it... the story is a hk drama say until 1 guy call yunzhi.. find out tt his wife still luv another guy which is his best fren. He always lost to his best fren in everything since they was young so in one way of another he admire him alot but somehow will also will be jealous... hmm so he went to rome for his duty as he is a pilot... also he went there at tt period of time is to giv his wife a chance to be wit the other guy call yichen. actualli i all along thod the character i admire the most is yichen... i think he is the type of guys girls will go for.. responsible... successful... good guy but after today episode i realli realli realli admire yunzhi character alot... even though he always lose out to his fren ... the only thing tt he feel he is luckiest is to hav his wife but even though he know his wife likes another guy he still willing to let her find her own happiness... n in the end he dies because he want to save a kid from being knocked down by the car... when he dies he is still smiling also ... actualli quite creepy hor but ok la not bad just now...
wah today actualli intend stay at home do 3d max den find out tt the video to do cant be seen... den i call my fren ken to go back sch do together upon reaching sch we find out tt assignment is actualli due on week 6. upon knowing tt i begin to slack already. den suddenly got another fren call dion come. wah she come even break down our concentration haha den we end up go eat dinner actualli intend eat dinner den go back do work den end up talking until 8 plus den go home. wah we went from south canteen talk den can talk all the way to the track n field there. wah reach there we still can walk around the track 2 round barefooted look quite stupid actualli but when i c ppl coming i tell them stop den can go home cause i also wan to watch zhong shan yun xiao luckily i nv miss today if nt i will regret for life.
wah today actualli intend stay at home do 3d max den find out tt the video to do cant be seen... den i call my fren ken to go back sch do together upon reaching sch we find out tt assignment is actualli due on week 6. upon knowing tt i begin to slack already. den suddenly got another fren call dion come. wah she come even break down our concentration haha den we end up go eat dinner actualli intend eat dinner den go back do work den end up talking until 8 plus den go home. wah we went from south canteen talk den can talk all the way to the track n field there. wah reach there we still can walk around the track 2 round barefooted look quite stupid actualli but when i c ppl coming i tell them stop den can go home cause i also wan to watch zhong shan yun xiao luckily i nv miss today if nt i will regret for life.
Wednesday, January 12, 2005
borders is where the bordest ppl hang out
hmm its being hmm let me c around 6 days since i last blog.. hmm cause the past 1 week n a half i was rushing my docu like shit n had no time for almost everything else but at last it had finished... although i admit it is not realli good... but it is the effort tht me team n one freelance helper hudha!!! tt make me enjoy the whole process although i admit it is tiring n make my blood boil because of the stupid com system n the lecturer who chase me out of the lab.
jus earlier ago, we spend our whole day finding ways to save our docu... we try every means o manner... like copying in the avid room... but dunno y end up 12 mins instead of the actual length 16 mins , also the comp lab dvdit program dunno issit because bought in jb or wad cannot use 1 luckily thanks to mr linus who helped us digitise the video into dv tape saved us! i feel tt all the dfv lecturers r realli realli nice ... its not like the normal teacher we usually thod of tt giv airs n dun realli interact wit u much or giv a teacher high air impression.. they r realli nice especially when i tink back of the studio project day... actualli the lecturers n staff finish work at 6 but for us they willing to stay till as late as 10 almost every night to assist us n to close the studio, n the next day they had to came early around 8 plus to open the studio for us... n miss irene too at first during my mtv segment i was quite irritated tt time cause because ppl infront of me overrun den she thod i overrun anot den she yell at m make me realli pissed at the moment especially when i was so stress being the studio director at tt time but she realli help n guide us like a mother alot in the sp n especially in the docu in the thai trip...
finally we are able to show the premiere of the docu today... hmm had to say again it is nt realli gd cause we r veri rrush n wit no experience in this thing too ... but after seeing my fellow peeps reactions n comments i am quite glad they appreciate it n giv us some constructive comments... wah when i hear the ms katherine want us to do an 1 hour docu instead i almost want to faint... cause i miss alot of lesson recently,, like producing, cp n i nv realli pay attention during the 3d max n i got big problem wit my next assignment... so i wonder if hav to do the docu again its realli quite a strain for me n my fellow members hope the others can tink in our pov... but if they realli wan a long 1 i will hav no second thoughts of doing it again cause at least after all the late nights n rushing ... after seeing ur finishing product ... i will feel gradually satisfied like all my work in eother design or video.
wah today when hudha n lenny suddenly tok about the borders is the bordeest place cause tts where all the bordest ppl hang around i feel veri amused hoho cause at least they can rem sth i wrote in my blog hohohoho ok la due to overwhelming response i will giv another joke but since i cant tink of 1 now i will entertain wit my jap lesson jokes kaka ka a sausage ok since hudha hav hear of t too i will teach another 1 shi shi she has long hair but this 1 nt realli funny ok nvm i will move on
wah cause i heAR fr 1 of my freshie tt they is a conflict in my class now hmm quite disappointed to hear tt ... after tt i go hear some of my freshies blog... hmm tink most of them r enjoying wad they r doin now so i am glad for them n if any of u r reading this u all can find me anytime if need either help in work or class problems... i will be realli willing to do wadever i can.
wah i type so much finger abit tired giv it a break. hav a kit kat
jus earlier ago, we spend our whole day finding ways to save our docu... we try every means o manner... like copying in the avid room... but dunno y end up 12 mins instead of the actual length 16 mins , also the comp lab dvdit program dunno issit because bought in jb or wad cannot use 1 luckily thanks to mr linus who helped us digitise the video into dv tape saved us! i feel tt all the dfv lecturers r realli realli nice ... its not like the normal teacher we usually thod of tt giv airs n dun realli interact wit u much or giv a teacher high air impression.. they r realli nice especially when i tink back of the studio project day... actualli the lecturers n staff finish work at 6 but for us they willing to stay till as late as 10 almost every night to assist us n to close the studio, n the next day they had to came early around 8 plus to open the studio for us... n miss irene too at first during my mtv segment i was quite irritated tt time cause because ppl infront of me overrun den she thod i overrun anot den she yell at m make me realli pissed at the moment especially when i was so stress being the studio director at tt time but she realli help n guide us like a mother alot in the sp n especially in the docu in the thai trip...
finally we are able to show the premiere of the docu today... hmm had to say again it is nt realli gd cause we r veri rrush n wit no experience in this thing too ... but after seeing my fellow peeps reactions n comments i am quite glad they appreciate it n giv us some constructive comments... wah when i hear the ms katherine want us to do an 1 hour docu instead i almost want to faint... cause i miss alot of lesson recently,, like producing, cp n i nv realli pay attention during the 3d max n i got big problem wit my next assignment... so i wonder if hav to do the docu again its realli quite a strain for me n my fellow members hope the others can tink in our pov... but if they realli wan a long 1 i will hav no second thoughts of doing it again cause at least after all the late nights n rushing ... after seeing ur finishing product ... i will feel gradually satisfied like all my work in eother design or video.
wah today when hudha n lenny suddenly tok about the borders is the bordeest place cause tts where all the bordest ppl hang around i feel veri amused hoho cause at least they can rem sth i wrote in my blog hohohoho ok la due to overwhelming response i will giv another joke but since i cant tink of 1 now i will entertain wit my jap lesson jokes kaka ka a sausage ok since hudha hav hear of t too i will teach another 1 shi shi she has long hair but this 1 nt realli funny ok nvm i will move on
wah cause i heAR fr 1 of my freshie tt they is a conflict in my class now hmm quite disappointed to hear tt ... after tt i go hear some of my freshies blog... hmm tink most of them r enjoying wad they r doin now so i am glad for them n if any of u r reading this u all can find me anytime if need either help in work or class problems... i will be realli willing to do wadever i can.
wah i type so much finger abit tired giv it a break. hav a kit kat
Thursday, January 06, 2005
arigato hudha!!!
hmm... still in sch again at 8 50 pm... feeling realli lousy today... yesterday wasn't able to sleep early because went to help my cousin wit something, and also feel realli uneasy at home recently cause recently got a malaysian working at my mum n uncles coffeeshop assistant come n stay here temporarily... just feel realli uneasy when someone u don't even know come here n stay n dun realli know wad to do at home nowadays..
another thing tt make me feel veri bad is because of my computer corrupting.. because of tt i cannot bring parts of the docu video to edit at home while the rest of my group members hav to rush like shit to submit the video by tmr... realli feel quite bad... the digitizing n rendering has take up damn alot of timr... everytime we cannot finish in time to save the files so hav to save in the sch com, but the next day when some of the video gone missing realli make me pissed off... feel realli bad today too because of a bad flu... have to force myself to focus n concentrte... tts y today sometimes feel abit irritated when my frens talk to me abit harsher but maybe is because i am unwell u quite lousy mood recently tt make my feelings abit more sensitive... realli hope to do more for the docu... n thanks to hudha too... have being helping us alot this 2 days... with an extra pair of hands it realli help us do our work faster... thanks hudha... hope we can realli finish this by tmr if not all our hard work will gone to waste...
another thing tt make me feel veri bad is because of my computer corrupting.. because of tt i cannot bring parts of the docu video to edit at home while the rest of my group members hav to rush like shit to submit the video by tmr... realli feel quite bad... the digitizing n rendering has take up damn alot of timr... everytime we cannot finish in time to save the files so hav to save in the sch com, but the next day when some of the video gone missing realli make me pissed off... feel realli bad today too because of a bad flu... have to force myself to focus n concentrte... tts y today sometimes feel abit irritated when my frens talk to me abit harsher but maybe is because i am unwell u quite lousy mood recently tt make my feelings abit more sensitive... realli hope to do more for the docu... n thanks to hudha too... have being helping us alot this 2 days... with an extra pair of hands it realli help us do our work faster... thanks hudha... hope we can realli finish this by tmr if not all our hard work will gone to waste...
Wednesday, January 05, 2005
docu docu docu
wah, its 9 pm, and i am still in nyp com lab doing my docu editing, hais now can only wait for the video to digitize , the com say54 mins remaining, hope it will be faster then that... hais any my home com hardisk is corrupt, so cant use the com currently, now everyday at home cannot online feel so uneasy n bored, now i know y borders is call borders cause it is border than the boredest person.
Monday, January 03, 2005
深深深
okay... today is the second d ay of 2005... the moment i wake up, i see raining cats and dogs outside my window again, the moment i c the heavy rain i fall back to sleep again this shows how much late i must have sleep this morning.
the moment i wake up finally, i went to hear a old song from my idol Hacken Lee... the lyrics goes like this...
无奈 你说你淡忘你说你淡忘 即使多么凄怆
面上剩下渐已吹乾吹乾眼泪两行
我说我盼望 我说我盼望可相恋多一趟
但是但是现已心知心知这是渺茫
this is actualli a cantonese song... if u all dunno this song is one of the song tt make hacken a househeld name in hongkong now...
this part of the chorus translated in eng means, cant help it, you say u have forgotten about all the past no matter how hurtful it was, but u still end up crying tearfully...
but me i wish i pray that we could fall in love one more time but inside my heart i know it is almost impossible...
ok maybe if u all dunno, this is one of my all time fav song, i find the lyrics veri meaningful, its like one of the relationship i have gone through, imagine a person u loved say she had forgotten the happy times, sad times u all onced had, how will u feel... but inside my heart although i hope we could still be together i know it is impossible...
hmm tts a very long time ago, but today i nv meant to jus tell my past, hmm n i had slowly learn to carry on... cause i know alot of people around me are going through relationship problem... just wish to tell them, if u realli find the one you loved n cherish u,hope fully vice versa the person loved u too... take hold of the chance, cherish the times u all had cause u all might nv know wad happened in future...
and after reading the newspaper this morning, the tsunami disater had gone from bad to worse, hope tt god is not punishing us because of all the terrorist attacks, riots tt the world are through, if it is hope he/she can give us 1 more chance n hope world will come to peace soon...
the moment i wake up finally, i went to hear a old song from my idol Hacken Lee... the lyrics goes like this...
无奈 你说你淡忘你说你淡忘 即使多么凄怆
面上剩下渐已吹乾吹乾眼泪两行
我说我盼望 我说我盼望可相恋多一趟
但是但是现已心知心知这是渺茫
this is actualli a cantonese song... if u all dunno this song is one of the song tt make hacken a househeld name in hongkong now...
this part of the chorus translated in eng means, cant help it, you say u have forgotten about all the past no matter how hurtful it was, but u still end up crying tearfully...
but me i wish i pray that we could fall in love one more time but inside my heart i know it is almost impossible...
ok maybe if u all dunno, this is one of my all time fav song, i find the lyrics veri meaningful, its like one of the relationship i have gone through, imagine a person u loved say she had forgotten the happy times, sad times u all onced had, how will u feel... but inside my heart although i hope we could still be together i know it is impossible...
hmm tts a very long time ago, but today i nv meant to jus tell my past, hmm n i had slowly learn to carry on... cause i know alot of people around me are going through relationship problem... just wish to tell them, if u realli find the one you loved n cherish u,hope fully vice versa the person loved u too... take hold of the chance, cherish the times u all had cause u all might nv know wad happened in future...
and after reading the newspaper this morning, the tsunami disater had gone from bad to worse, hope tt god is not punishing us because of all the terrorist attacks, riots tt the world are through, if it is hope he/she can give us 1 more chance n hope world will come to peace soon...
Saturday, January 01, 2005
2005...
It is 7 39 am in the morning... i have just finished bathing after coming back celebrating new year with my poly friends... We went to boom boom room first... den after some of my friends had go off i and 2 other friends actually intend go cine cathay watch meet the fockers but sadly we never did cause tickets left 2 but we got 3 ppl... so we stay at the ljs there eat eat there talk till the first train come.
Hmm.. actualli i thod i was spending this holiday alone again but luckily my friends rem me n ask me out haha, i guess after i post my previous post they was afraid i will be lonely at home ba so they veri nice ask me out thanks rach dion n ade... hmm but actualli yesterday dun realli feel like goin out too cause i was quite broke n my atm card spoilt no atm to withdraw my money haha sound stupid n worse of all i dunno y yesterday my stomach feel funny keep feeling a pain once in awhile... but i hear tt one of my fren had break off wit her bf so my fren ask me to go down to cheer her up n of course i must but i tink i nv do much to cheer her up too cause me myself was feel abit uncomfortable so sorry about tt...
Hais... i was quite afffected by the relationships problems my frens around me are facing... One of my fren had broke off wit her bf... i know no matter if ppl break off wit u or even if its u that initiate , it will still be painful...i understand tt feeling... Who can jus end a long term relationship wit someone u once loved without having feel sad, guilt n emotions... but things always had to move on.. so cheer up soon my fren... Also one of my guy fren... feel quite sad for him cause he like a girl but the girl dun realli like him as in being as in a relationship, but knowing he is a nice guy she also dosen want to hurt him... As a friend, after seeing him do so much for a girl, i dunno if i sld encourage him to continue his pursue cause i feel it is quite pointless but i know he realli like the girl n wun give up so soon... but i also find it hard to say things to make him give up... its liek u knowing he is like a headles chicken going nowhere but u cannot make urself to stop him aiya i also dunno wad i am saying but think most of my friends can understand...
2004 is over... at a moment jus now... when i tink back 2004... it is a very sad year for me... @ of my closest ppl around me had passed away... my grandma n my aunt who is also my next door neighbour in my old block for 16 years... i always had 2 biggest regrets in life... one is not doing well for my o level in the past, i had waste 1 yr of time because of tt... and most importantly i disappoint my parents n relatives who had great hopes in me... but after tt i had change, i am no longer the olc that always a good for nth, not concern about work n family, wasting my life off doing useless things... I hope 1 day i can accomplish sth n do well in my course n make my parents proud of me... i realli wan to do tt tts y i am working veri hard ever since my poly start, i put alot of effort in my work no matter it ends up good or bad... n because of my seriousnes wit my work... someimtes during group... i end up having conflicts wit my friends... but i hope they could understand me... cause i realli wan to do well n i hope i can motivate them to do well too...
for my second biggest regret... is not able to c my grandma one last time before she passed away... i was watching movie at that time when i got the call from my cousin tt she passed away... i had feel so bad n guilt ever since... i had so much to say to my grandma now... but hope she is happier now at the other end of the world... cause she had suffer alot this few years wit diseases n sickness... ah ma.. i miss u....
Ok... hopefully 2005 will be a happier year for me, my family and my friends around me. Hoped everybody around me could find love n joy n cherish every moment wit ur loved ones u had... sayonara...
Hmm.. actualli i thod i was spending this holiday alone again but luckily my friends rem me n ask me out haha, i guess after i post my previous post they was afraid i will be lonely at home ba so they veri nice ask me out thanks rach dion n ade... hmm but actualli yesterday dun realli feel like goin out too cause i was quite broke n my atm card spoilt no atm to withdraw my money haha sound stupid n worse of all i dunno y yesterday my stomach feel funny keep feeling a pain once in awhile... but i hear tt one of my fren had break off wit her bf so my fren ask me to go down to cheer her up n of course i must but i tink i nv do much to cheer her up too cause me myself was feel abit uncomfortable so sorry about tt...
Hais... i was quite afffected by the relationships problems my frens around me are facing... One of my fren had broke off wit her bf... i know no matter if ppl break off wit u or even if its u that initiate , it will still be painful...i understand tt feeling... Who can jus end a long term relationship wit someone u once loved without having feel sad, guilt n emotions... but things always had to move on.. so cheer up soon my fren... Also one of my guy fren... feel quite sad for him cause he like a girl but the girl dun realli like him as in being as in a relationship, but knowing he is a nice guy she also dosen want to hurt him... As a friend, after seeing him do so much for a girl, i dunno if i sld encourage him to continue his pursue cause i feel it is quite pointless but i know he realli like the girl n wun give up so soon... but i also find it hard to say things to make him give up... its liek u knowing he is like a headles chicken going nowhere but u cannot make urself to stop him aiya i also dunno wad i am saying but think most of my friends can understand...
2004 is over... at a moment jus now... when i tink back 2004... it is a very sad year for me... @ of my closest ppl around me had passed away... my grandma n my aunt who is also my next door neighbour in my old block for 16 years... i always had 2 biggest regrets in life... one is not doing well for my o level in the past, i had waste 1 yr of time because of tt... and most importantly i disappoint my parents n relatives who had great hopes in me... but after tt i had change, i am no longer the olc that always a good for nth, not concern about work n family, wasting my life off doing useless things... I hope 1 day i can accomplish sth n do well in my course n make my parents proud of me... i realli wan to do tt tts y i am working veri hard ever since my poly start, i put alot of effort in my work no matter it ends up good or bad... n because of my seriousnes wit my work... someimtes during group... i end up having conflicts wit my friends... but i hope they could understand me... cause i realli wan to do well n i hope i can motivate them to do well too...
for my second biggest regret... is not able to c my grandma one last time before she passed away... i was watching movie at that time when i got the call from my cousin tt she passed away... i had feel so bad n guilt ever since... i had so much to say to my grandma now... but hope she is happier now at the other end of the world... cause she had suffer alot this few years wit diseases n sickness... ah ma.. i miss u....
Ok... hopefully 2005 will be a happier year for me, my family and my friends around me. Hoped everybody around me could find love n joy n cherish every moment wit ur loved ones u had... sayonara...
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