Tuesday, January 18, 2005

when can i finally watch aviator?

woo ... finally can take a breather for a short night to write this... have been torturing by scriptwriting for a while. wah i guess i sucks at tt firstly i cannot put down my thoughts n wad i visualize into words especially english n also i sucks at thinking stories ideas. Hmm got 1 girl call dion say my blog boring!!! wad! a blog is not a block is one of the most entertaining blogs around. u c, where else can u hear blog tt say borders is call borders cause tts where all the bordest ppl hang out! no where else rite. hmm also feel quite nice tt my freshies got coem visit my blog, so long nv meet up wit u all. when u thod tt someone tt might hav forgotten u or nt veri close to u spend the effort to read wad u type n think it feel quite nice actualli..

hmm actualli today after lesson wan watch aviator but shit man all the earliest time at all cinemas is 8 plus n the show is 3 hours so if we watch finish is 11 plus so nt veri gd for health so end u dragging here n there we end up in j8 tok at mos burger talk talk talk until i forget wad time tink 8 plus.

actualli nowadays i keep having a bad feeling... feel sth bad is goin to happen to me... dunno how to explain the feeling, but just dun feel as confident in wad i do n wad i tok as b4, tts y when sometimes my frens tok to me in a harsh way or give me a pissed look, i dunno if its realli for real or jokingly as many ppl feel tt i am nt a veri serious person in terms of talking or wad so they might dunno they had hurt me or make me upset unknowingly as i normally wun express how i feel. i am the type tt normally wun speak or say anythin even if i realli in need of help or upset, guess tts a sort of independence anyway...

hmm actualli recently looking at the people around us n during conversations n observing, people always felt tt others are taken themself for granted, hmm sometimes it may be due to senstiveness or because its urself unknowingly tt the person means sth to u inside ur heart. hopefully i hope i am not taken for granted although i seem like a person who dun care about this type of small sensitive things, but i do realli care n definely feel appreciated if ppl acknowledge my presence n contribution.

1 comment:

Oodha said...

it doesnt matter what ppl think about you. some ppl are just out there to bring you down, ppl who dont like you for being the centre of attraction. i mean i'm sure u cant help it that ur popular right?

i used to think that taking each other for granted is a very very big matter, but unless that person is really really close to you, then u shouldnt think so much about it. becos at the end of the day, u dont even knw who are your real frens. just take things day by day :)

that's why it's important to be who u are. u don always hav to hav ur own thoughts or opinions, sometimes it's best to observe and listen...