Saturday, February 25, 2006

Since long i have bee blogging tink sld be quite a long post.

Hais alot of thing happening to my mother side again. My uncle dun tink i sld be calling him a uncle again has an affair with an indonesian girl which even born him a child which my aunt jus found out recently. even though my aunt forgive him once he still go back to her, leaving her with 4 children. my small cousin still wrote a letter to him stating she how is he willing to leave a woman who has been with you for more than 20 yrs den one u know for barely few yrs.

recently nt long my uncle also just divorced her wife, who is a super career woman, my uncle is in a bad state and sad mood everyday, his son only primary 3 still say he has no father at all.

15 more days and it has been a yr since my ah ma pass away... miss her so much, so much... thod of her everyday speaking n nagging to me in the living room... putting wallet inside my money when she saw my wallet was empty... tidying up my untidy room... n joking at me when i going to bring my gf back again cause she didn long i have broke up wit me ex yrs ago...

my shoot is finishing... going to grad soon... yet i haven finish up anything... got to push myself... feel so unmotivated to do things recently... feel veri veri tired n mentally strain everyday... where has my motivation n never say die spirit i had during my first yr gone too... i wish i could force myself to be hardworking...