nv blog for months, but feeling realli low n down, no 1 to tok to so this is my las place to vent out my feelings, hope this 2 yrs of shit will quickly end, i hav being post to a shit place wit a shitty working schedule and the ppl there are sadistic bastards. i can take the tough, but everytime i try visualizing myself wad wil happen if i serve this shit after my o's hw different will it be nw, i will be working wad i always wan to do, in film, study part time, i had my plans. sometime i c my frens happily discussing work n sch i feel happy for them but sometimes jealous too... i realli wan to do those things of my passion, filming, watching movies, i badly badly badly wan to work, the feeling of no money, cant do the things i realli wan make me realli depress. everynite b4 slping all this thoughts keep caming to my end. luckily i had still frens who will ask me out which at least wun make me think during the weekends. i am heading a life of no where. i dunno wad am i goin to do in future. i dunno where i am heading. i wan to earn money to able to giv my parents every month. i wan to do the things i wan get the things i wan. i hope to hav a person to pour out my sorrows. sth everybody is jus real busy n u dunno wad to do. getting drunk cant even make me forget all this shit. i dunno wad is making me like tt, sth jus when someone nv reply or nv pick up my call when i wan someone to tok to makes me realli depress, the thod of nth to do during the weekend or burn my weekend inside tt place i rather die.

goin in soon. when will ths end. sorry blog always used u as my frustration ground. i am just grumbling. nw feeling slightly better. i can only look forward to the next weekend.